I actually considered making a throwaway for this…however, I have decided that I didnt want to hide the sexual side of me with anonymity which in turn makes me feel shame for them.
I met my most recent partner actually through a subreddit which in a strange turn of events has been the best relationship I have encountered in my dating history. He’s funny, dynamic, smart, and everything I desire and am attracted to in a guy. My sexual history has been fairly “Laissez-faire” and I have done a fair amount of submissive play including shibori, tying, etc. but nothing of high magnitude.
As I have aged, I have stopped concerning/worrying myself what my partner wants to what *I* want and trying to vocalize that. He has been extremely receptive and tender in that regard as we build our sexual compatibility.
I like to be shamed into tapping into that core “sluttiness” that I have burning inside me…that feeling of being controlled and shamed…all in my head…the outside audience not knowing what is truely running through my mind as we I work, socialize, and blend into the the background. I work in an office and field environment so theres opportunities to branch into a bit of public play at the place where you are most serious.