Still sore

03/16/2021

I am a little sore still from anal and make jokes about it. I recall even touching myself during and I liked it. Am I that girl now? More sex, I serve him meals and putter. This is normal. He’s going to leave for 10 days. I feel so god damn anxious about that. We brainstorm I’ll make a schedule and I begin that for some structure while he’s away. He’s possessive and controlling, obsessive and he owns me completely. I love it but tell no one.

Before Noon

03/15/2021

Normal day, but I came into the office and he bent me over which isn’t atypical and we began having sex, he then spits downward to lube up and shoves his cock in my ass and I pull back.

He took it mostly at my pace and I wavered with how much I could handle but I did and he came inside me. It hurt some and I was sore for a couple of days. What does this mean all before noon?

The Contract

03/18/2021

I wake up to let the dogs out and there is a stapled CONTRACT on our dining room table. Ok…. I pick it up and barely begin reading when he rounds the corner and I ask him what is up with this and he suggests I read it, in detail and come to him after I have with questions, thoughts, and/or concerns. I do. I take out a few things like fisting that I simply won’t do as of now and he obliges and strikes them out. I sign it!! Holy fuck what did I get into. It is subject to three months as of this day and then up for re-negotiation. Later in the car he explains how he has essentially been testing and training me for sometime. Looking back I see the actions and feel his words and praise for “doing well” at times throughout our relationship. Lately he has been more dominant and has been praising me for my “submissiveness” as if it’s a gift to him and he adores me for it. I’ve been groomed? He touches my back as we exit Costco and guides me. I love it. I’m his. He owns me and I feel secure and sexy. At night I ride him and have two mind-blowing orgasms. He says I want you to cum for me baby and it’s the biggest turn on. He holds me after. I’m in heaven.