Since I was 12 years old, I knew I was not attracted to men. I was a lesbian through and through but society’s pressure meant I could never come out in the open.
Years went by, I dated a few men, just to seem normal, in the hopes, I’ll feel ‘normal’ but it never happened. Guys liked me, but I never felt anything for them.
Fast forward a few years and my family is pushing me to get married as I reach my 30s. I was just 22 lol
Anyway, I couldn’t do anything about it. I thought I should not fight it and maybe let them find a guy for me. They did, a handsome man, who was well-off and seemed like a catch, for a straight woman. Oh well, I married the man
However, from day one, things weren’t good. I remember the first time he kissed me and I felt gross and felt even worse when I felt his cock.
No matter what happens, I can never like the feeling.