[M] My true story about my real wish.

Hi. I can’t find understanding person so read my true story. I’m Slavic feminine guy, I’m heteroflexible and I want to try a blowjob giving. But I’m a demisexual too so I need a trustworthy and honest person. I want to find a tall white friend of such type. Somebody can consider me picky but I want a friendship with benefits so I need a true friend. And it’s too difficult to find such person in my society. I don’t know what to do.