I always had a thing for this guy in my church when I was in middle school. I was 12 and he was 13 when we became friends, though I think we knew of each other before that.
He’s half Filipino like me and I remember liking him a lot because he had long black hair like mine. One night after church I realised I had a crush on him. Then later that week I had a dream where we had baby making sex in our Youth Group room. Next morning my panties were soaked. He was pretty much my first wet dream.
Well, to skip all the details of our childhood friendship… I used to be super chubby back then but he never condemned me for it when we were kids. We were good friends for a while until high school hit. He and I went to different schools, but the same church still. He grew further and further away from me and I got more and more obsessed with him. I remember it got so bad that I masturbated to him in a family Christmas pic his step mom sent me in the mail. So, eventually Junior year I confessed my feelings for him. He got weirded out and never spoke to me again. I felt pretty dumb and embarrassed, but I eventually moved on because he did some shitty things to me and some other people, anyway.