First time with another man [MM]

In my early 20s I went through a devastating breakup. My girlfriend of several years admitted to fucking one of my friends. I went into a depression and filled the void with porn and eventually, random sex. I got really into TS and gay porn on top of my regular stuff. I found myself browsing craigslist personals in search of my first gay or trans encounter. Trans was a lot harder to find in my area. This was the days before grindr and I didn’t like the exposure of a dating site.

I found a guy looking for mutual fun in an adjacent city, roughly a 90 minute drive. He was my age and moderately fit. White with brown hair and hazel eyes. Not weird looking, and I really didn’t have a gauge for attractiveness in men. Not feminine at all, which might have helped later, but I didn’t have a lot of options. Most of the guys on craigslist were way older, overweight, and extremely hairy. That’s a hard sell for a guy who’s only been with women.

I’m a straightish guy but I love botto[M]ing for transwomen, and occasionally men.

I’d consider myself straight. I have a girlfriend who I love dearly and have never cheated on. Before we met thoug, I spent years sleeping around. I went through a rough breakup and started watching a lot of porn. Eventually transgender and gay porn. I started fantasizing about tasting cock. At the time, craigslist still had personals and escort pages. I found myself browsing them and masturbating to the ads. Eventually I got up the nerve to try a TS escort. I’d already been with several female escorts so that part didn’t really bother me. I met this trans escort at her apartment. She was a gorgeous athletic latina with a fat cock. I was nervous so she sucked me for a while before I got up the nerve to suck her. I’d had one gay experience before so this wasn’t the first cock is sucked. Afterwards I topped her. I came so hard in her ass and felt so dirty after.