It all started when a couple days ago I got way too high and fucked my bf(m31). That day I was so high my body felt completely relaxed and it almost felt like the body high from doing shrooms. If I stayed still long enough I would just loose sense of where my body was. This resulted in me feeling like I existed to just get fucked and enjoy being fucked. Mix in some light bdsm and you got yourself some good sub space right there. We chose the not so glamorous term “fuck puddle” for this state.
Well the day after I said I wanted to try again. My bf heard this walked to get our gummies and put it in my mouth while telling me he wanted me to be a fuck puddle. Him being dominant while making me eat the gummy flipped something in me. I realized I wanted to RP him forcing me to take drugs and fucking me when I was too high to be able to stop him. Also cannabis is legal where we live.