37F – recently fucked my student and can’t stop thinking about younger men, new professor here [FM]

I tend to be a private personn but I thought I’d give it a shot and share my story. I recently started my career in academia after completing my PhD. I’m now working at a large academic institution on the east coast as an adjunct professor. I’m in my late 30’s and have been married to since my mid 20’s. Moving across the country for my new job has put quite some strain on our relationship.

I’ve been under a lot of stress with trying to familiarize myself with the new position, managing my teaching course load, and just everything in my personal life. I’ve had to teach courses as a TA during my doctorate studies, but being the actual prof entailed so much more stress. I was barely sleeping 4-5 hours each night prior to the start of the course just so I could make sure the materials I prepared were perfect and that I’d be ready for anything thrown at me.