This Text is a confession and i often wrote it and deleted it again. I still dont know how i feel about it.
Anyways… I was invited to a birthday to a friend of mine. I had to travel quite a bit and there werent as much friends of us as expected. So one would meet New ppl and feel for the Sake of the crowd somehow alone. During the day my friend had a girl with him a friend. In the evening we began to drink and wouldnt stop with beer there were alot of shots aswell and soon i found myself in a drunken state where my eyes were weary and I had some Blackouts already. So everything just mixed my sight my movements my perception.
I quit Smoking a couple of years ago, But sometimes i do smoke for the Sake of it. So the girl i mentioned before has cigarettes and since they guy shouldnt know we went outside a bit far off to have a smoke. We were just talking and i dont know at what point the conversation changed but it got really sexual. I dont rememeber what came first we kissing or she telling me that she wants me to come on her face.