I grew bored of my sheltered life in the castle and yearned for something more. My father forbade me from leaving the grounds no matter how much I protested. I would often amuse myself by tormenting my female servants and they would not dare to complain to the Lord, lest they be beaten and whipped. Even at the age of 19 I was still yet to be married as most eligible suitors were at war in some distant place. Any lowborn men I tried to talk to did not even look me in the eye out of fear and respect for my father.
I planned to disguise myself as a commoner and sneak out to the inn outside of the castle walls. When my maid was undressing me in my bedchamber I finally revealed my plans to her. She threatened to tell my father, but I threatened her with far worse. She agreed she would lend me her clothes, but would not help me any further. With tears in her eyes, she removed her humble dress and placed it over my head. I waited till it grew darker and then mingled with crowd, exiting through the main gate into the unknown.