Have you ever just wanted to hate fuck someone? [M]

I’m confessing something I haven’t told anyone, the reasons for which will be obvious by the end of the confession.

For the past 15 or so years I have had an ever growing and increasingly annoying relationship with a female coworker. It’s not your typical relationship involving flirtation, stolen glances, office romance, etc…, in fact she has no idea that there is any relationship other than as coworkers because you see, this relationship is completely in my head!

Let me describe her to you first. Grace claims to be 5’ tall, but I’m guessing she’s really only 4’11”. Physically she’s not really petite, but she’s certainly not fat. She has naturally curly (in between tight curls and wavy) brown/auburn hair that falls several inches below her shoulders and she wears it up in a bun more often than not. Her face is pretty but not outstanding although she has a very nice smile when she’s in a good mood. I would describe her as “curvy” bordering on “thick” but with a fairly thin waistline, and upon meeting her the first time, I suspect most persons (especially guys) would notice her breasts and cleavage immediately. I would say she’s a DD which on her frame makes them stand out full and proud and she either has great bra’s or they’re still pretty firm for a 49 year old. Her ass changes depending on her weight, but she’s been working out and dieting for the last couple years so it’s not as “jiggly” as it used to be, but it still catches your eye when she walks by.