[disclaimer: includes emotionally charged CNC/borderline NC fantasy between a married couple]
It’s 3:00 AM and here I am, lying next to you, trying to sleep after a fancy dinner and spending all day with you… dropping hints, complementing you, and treating you so nicely. But once again, you subtly brushed it off with a smile, and not so much as a half nod, giving me hope that you will relieve my neglect tonight. I just gave you a nice scalp massage and face rub until you fell asleep to the putter-patter sounds of the rainfall. What a perfect night, what a perfect marriage, right? If so, why am I still awake and why do I feel so much pent up frustration? I just .. want to fuck you ..
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.. what if I just fucking do it against your will? I feel like I could justify it in my heart and mind. You’re right here, lying next to me. I could just cover your mouth, hold you down, and let the resentment take hold. I’d put my hand heavy against your cheek, turn your face away from me and push it hard down into the pillow, and whisper in your ear, “you think you can cheat on me all those years ago, and get away with it?” You’d have no idea I still let those thoughts slip into my mind.. but they do. Especially on nights like these, they do.