..The last time I [18m] had an orgasm was roughly 3 days ago. I was currently on a depressing streak of procrastination, and staring at my to do list (desktop app trello, really recommend) of all the exam revision I was supposed to have done. For some context, It was the last day of a one-week “holiday”, if you could call it that. Everyone knew it was just a short breather from physical school where you were supposed to study undistracted to your heart’s content. Or at least that was the general consensus on the surface, a social stigma to portray the utopian, studious image of yourself. In my opinion, the first few days of any holiday a relaxing yet critical moment which predetermines the productivity of the rest of the holiday. There is always a burst of motivation that one will feel in those initial days, that makes the future seem like difficult yet rewarding challenge to tackle. However, such motivation is short lived, and by then discipline should take over the helm to propel one onto a planned, consistent and balanced study schedule. It is always a gamble as to whether I will be able to establish this schedule and grip the reins of my life to steer it in the right direction.