Author: breathontheneck

A few weeks ago, I received a knock on my front door from one of my neighbors. They were a young attractive couple, in their late twenties I think, we hadn’t had much interaction outside of the occasional casual greeting when we saw each other. They wanted to let me know that they were hosting a house party and asked if I wanted to come along. I am not one for parties usually, but after having spent practically two years indoors with minimal social interaction I figured it was about time I got out the house and they seemed like cool people so I thought fuck it, why not. When I turned up I had already had a few drinks in some vain attempt to prime myself for socialising. I was usually pretty extroverted but after having been out the game for a while I was pretty nervous about going somewhere where I didn’t know anyone. The couple who invited me greeted me at the door, I handed them some booze I had brought along and they showed me in. I wasn’t sure what to expect but I guessed from their age and the fact they had invited a random neighbor that it wasn’t going to be an intimate gathering. I didn’t expect it to be as busy as it was though, practically every inch of floor space was occupied by someone but I managed to squeeze past and get to the kitchen. I felt a lot more awkward than usual so I made a beeline to get myself another drink and found a corner with enough space for me to chill for a while while I figured out what I was going to do. I didn’t want to be that guy who just stood there not talking to anyone but it seemed like everyone already knew each other, clusters of people had begun to form and I just felt like an outsider. I was looking out across the sea of people, scoping out a potential opening into one of the groups or for someone else on their own. As my eyes panned over all the new faces I saw someone looking over in my direction. I dismissed it at first, but when I looked back over in her direction we locked eyes and it was clear she was looking directly at me. I am used to approaching women I am interested in and laying down game but I am not typically the guy who gets girls approaching him. This was different though, I could see it in her eyes, she knew what she wanted and was giving me a look that verged on predatory. I wanted to play it cool and pretend I hadn’t noticed, that is what you are meant to do right? Before I had a chance to look back some guy tapped me on the shoulder and offered me a beer, asked my name and how I knew the couple. I rushed through answering his questions and looked back over to where she was but she had disappeared. The guy continued to ask questions and push for conversation but all I could think about was finding where this girl had gone. He was a nice guy and I guess I was being an asshole but I couldn’t help but give short uninterested replies, my mind was possessed with thoughts of this girl and I had suddenly lost all interest in socialising with anyone. I wasn’t about to go chasing after her though, so I snapped myself out of it and returned my focus back to our conversation. The night continued and I met loads more people, played a few games of beer pong but she hadn’t left my mind all night. I kept looking out across the people hoping I might catch a glimpse of her face despite repeatedly telling myself to just forget about her and enjoy the rest of my night. Read more »