The love I felt for my best friend

I know him for 4 years I think, and we are really close, he danced with me when I turned 15 at my party, always by my side and really sweet and careful. Some time ago a problem happened and I needed a house to stay for a week, and I asked if I could stay in his, he obviously accepted and I went there. Since this was like a last time seeing him before moving away for a year, I wanted to make sure I kissed him or something before going. So from the start he would lay in the same bed I was since it was a queen sized bed and we would talk a lot, he wasn’t sleeping there because his mother said to sleep in his bedroom, so while he was there I would wear a really short pajama that was large in my butt so he could see a little bit. When he got out of the bedroom to sleep I changed to wearing black lanced panties and a white top, and went to get some water like that. I accidentally broke the glass and I saw a chance for him to look at me like that, so I knocked on his door wanting help. He opened wearing only black boxers and got a little surprised by my clothes and I saw he got hard, I got wet from seing that too, he complimented my body and ass and went to help me.
The next day I decided to “forget” my clothes at the bedroom when taking a shower, and then I had to leave the bathroom only with my towel, and when I saw him I dropped it, his jaw dropped and just said “oh my god”. Since we are best friends for a long time and really intimate, I wasn’t startled and just picked up the towel and went naked to my bedroom with a smile on my face to him.
The other days we went to the cinema to watch something while I layed my head on his shoulders, played games, walked through the mall, and things that I was happy for being with him, and I could see he was enjoying too. We even went to the pool, where I could wear a tight and little bikini and we would play with each other by trying to drown one another and I was rubbing my body against him and I saw he was doing the same.
Within the two last days, some bad news and rumors got to me, affecting my depression and getting me really bad, I was just laying on the bed and crying. At the beginning I didn’t want anyone with me, but he was stubborn and layed down with me, hugging from the back. He was kissing the back of my neck and caressing my hair, when I decided it was the moment, and just exploded saying how much I loved him, how I wanted him to kiss me and that I wanted him for the rest of my life, all of this while crying. I saw his eyes tear up while our faces were really close, and he kissed me, a lot. We were kissing for minutes when things started to get hot, we took our clothes off, and we did a lot of things, he licked my pussy while I was laying down, and when I sat on his face while playing with my boobs, he sucked them too and fingered me, while I stroked his cock while he kissed my neck, and after a blowjob where he was holding my head through my hair, we had sex, amazing sex, I came probably 5 times only that day, and lost my virginity with him, and he with me. After that we just stayed there hugged, he slept with me, completely naked, we had sex again, and the other day too, but not a wild and only sex thing, I felt love, and I could see he felt it too. Before leaving, we kissed goodbye, he held my hands and said “I don’t care if you’re going to be out for a year, I want to date you”, I obviously accepted, and know I’m only some weeks away of seeing my ex best friend, now boyfriend that I love