[MM] 30 First Time playing with another man

I’ve been bi curious for a long time and frequently get off to pictures of cock. Up until now I’ve gotten myself horny enough to even post on Craigslist when it was a thing and double list. I’ve talked with a few guys but when it came down to meeting up I always chickened out.

One day I got so horny that I posted on doublelist and began talking and trading pictures. For this we will say his name was James. James is a little older then me and gay. Throughout our conversation and picture exchanging I told him that I was curious about sucking cock and the idea of it turned me on so much. He offered help me out with my curiosity and for some reason I said yes. I told him how I wanted to fee a cock in my mouth and 69 with him.

We agreed to meet up an hour or so later and he promised to be chill and easy going. I give him my address and he says he’s going to shower and get ready then come over. My heart is racing at this point. Am I really going through with this? At the same point I’m rock hard and determined to go through with it.