Listened to Ex Fking New BF

Here's my story. Anyone similar?

I'm not really a cuck in that I want to be submissive while some guy cums in my woman and clean her out and shit. But my ex did cheat on me with another guy. He is younger and a very good looking in shape guy with a better job. I'm not terrible looking, but am pretty much bald with an average body. He is a pharmacist making over $100k and I make less than 40k doing factory work. She revealed the affair and said she was sorry but was looking for someone with a better job and better looking (ouch!) when I pressed her on why she did it. She wanted me out of the house understandably (it was her house), but I asked her if I could stay at least until I had enough money to move out and could find another job. She reluctantly agreed and I moved into the basement. Shortly thereafter, he moved in part time even though he had his own place. Awkward to say the least. She just wanted me out of there, and I felt like such a loser with him there. At night, I could hear them fuck even though I was in the basement. I couldn't help but think they were putting on a show… she never screamed like that with me.