[MF] stranded with the babysitter (very long)

ok guys, this happened a few weeks ago and i just absolutely NEED to tell someone. This story is absolutely full of bad decisions so if you can get past that then read on. Also prepare for horrible grammar and past tense present tense flip flops

Some backstory, im a 25 year old busy (married) professional with children. I hired a nanny (the title says babysitter because come on, thats way hotter. She is in fact a nanny which is basically a babysitter that i pay a lot more.) About 8 months ago. Her name is alyssa. Shes 19 yo petite, long brunette hair that almost touches her bubbly ass, with a perky pair of c cup breasts. Long legs and a very cute face with full pouty lips. Shes very mature and smart as fuck, and insanely professional which helps because it forces me to behave and not say anything too inapropriate around her, and she is absolutely steller at her job. Basically our relationship up to this point has been very professionally platonic though i definitely have jerked off thinking about her often.