It has been a long time since I’ve posted here on Reddit. In the past, I shared stories about my out of control libido and my struggle with lack of interpersonal connection during the pandemic. It has been a frustrating time- getting my hopes up when I meet someone, only to be disappointed and feeling stupid for getting excited in the first place.
Near the start of this year, an old friend (I’ll call him A, 44M) and I started spending more time together. We have known each other for about 20 years, somewhat peripherally, but always had good feelings towards one another. He had previously expressed interest in being more than friends, but I was hesitant. I didn’t see him that way and was afraid to start hooking up and possibly lead him on or hurt him. When we started taking the occasional masked walk together, our conversations grew deeper very quickly. We both have crazy high sex drives, and were both struggling without having safe places to explore that energy. Relating to people is hard, and trying to meet new partners and develop some intimacy during the pandemic was nearly impossible. It was nice to be able to confide in and support one another in such hard times.