God, where do I even start? I guess this began about a year ago when I posted on /r/sex about how I had some intimacy issues and stuff like that. Feel free to read about it in my history, but basically, I loved the idea of sex, watched lots of porn, but when it came down to the real thing, I got all flustered and self-conscious and had to stop. Even when masturbating, sometimes I’d start obsessing over stupid details and lose all my sex drive. I’m still pretty much the same, I don’t really seek out sex because it’s just too much to handle for me most of the time, but I did have one encounter that gave me some hope, along with a lifetime of fantasy material…
At some point while I was talking about this issue on Reddit, it was suggested that maybe I should try taking complete and total control of the situation. Basically, find a guy who could act like a sex doll. I liked the idea and so began my search.