I am no longer that sweet and innocent girl I used to be[18F/18M]

I've always thought I would remain a virgin until marriage. Everyone thought I would make it through college without sex. Yet, I lost my innocence after highschool. Me losing my virginity is a secret.

I lost it to my best friend who happened to be an ex bf of my friend. I liked this guy for a very long time. He is funny, cute, and beautiful. He has nice hair which always attracted my attention. He is very friendly and social, not shy.

On the other hand, I am very shy and nerdy. I only cared about getting good grades but I played volleyball for four years. As a result, I am going to a good college and am very fit. I do have big boobs but I am short. I watch anime on my spare time.

After my high school graduation, I slept at my friend's house under the notion of sleeping at my cousin's house. His house was around the corner and I texted him. He opened the door and took me upstairs.

We were alone in his bedroom talking and watching tv. I am socially awkward but he was kind and caring. He was giving me a lot of attention and I loved it. All of a sudden he kissed me.