Hi All,
Hope you’re well. Been meaning to keep a ‘diary’ of my sex life for a while now. I’m highly sexually charged – a 8/10, my girlfriend is more like a 3/10. Nearly everything that happens is at her say so. She stopped me from touching her erotically at random times, sex only happens if she’s in the mood (I can always get her in the mood but it doesnt start off that way). So I’m looking for an outlet for this conflict in my mind, this perceived one-sidedness. Something that gives me control and appeases my sexual side.
This diary si 100% genuine, my thoughts, feelings, sexual encounters..everything written is true. Apparently needs to be stated: we are both over 18.
**Reality hits**
I’ve only had a few sexual encounters with girls, but the biggest surprise for me when I finally lost my virginity and managed to score a few times was that it did not feel tight. Years of fantasizing, death-grip masturbation and lies from porn had me believing that sex with a girl would feel tight. Do you know what I mean?
Instead, what I found was that pussy was fairly open, i.e when I’m sliding in and out of that cavern, there wasn’t much feeling or sensation. Whilst their eyes rolled backwards, mouths open in ecstasy I was always left craving some grip.
I’m not a dick so didn’t do what some guys probably would have done: blame the girls. Instead I Googled and learnt that a vagina when turned on will ‘balloon’. Yes exactly how it sounds.