I’ve known I was kinky since I was young. No girl finds villains as attractive as I did when I was a kid unless they’re gonna grow up with a fetish for it. I did my best in my younger teen years to educate myself and experience as much as I could, but I fell short, and I’ve always felt I was missing something in bed.
I discovered hypnosis almost completely by accident when I was looking for an audio recording of someone describing how to masturbate with a vibrator (usually skimming through /r/gonewildaudio for it), stumbling instead into a kinky power-play with some tricking of the mind, and I was blown away. I quickly found the recordings too impersonal and posted a wanted ad here on reddit for a hypnotist to help me explore my kinks and interests.
I got replies, yeah, way too fucking many, and with how badly I was trying to find someone I could relate to, a lot were slipping through the cracks as I tried to respond. I kept reading and reading until finally one message came that stopped me and made me go back to reread out of curiosity. He said something that got me stuck there, reading his message, wondering if maybe he was the one I should be trying to work with.