All during my life, I was strong, confident, assertive. Now we call it toxic masculinity, but then it was just being brash, loud and sometimes obnoxious.
My girlfriend and my best friend broke me of it the night she sucked his cock and worshiped it in front of me. Ever since that night, I live a lie and pretend to be that same guy, but I know I’m not really an Alpha. I don’t mind it, either.
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Todd and I were in school together and knew each other a little from high school. He was quiet, a little shyer than me and was always like my younger brother even though we were only a few weeks apart in our ages. Todd was shorter and less confident with girls, but we spent all our time chasing them. The difference was that I had no trouble getting girls and I was, I admit it, a total asshole about getting laid before him. He’d simmer and be passive aggressive and we’d keep hanging out.