I [F] masturbated and had an orgasm for the first time by humping a pillow and using my fingers!!

This is a long one/written on mobile so I’m very very sorry if the formatting is poor!!

I’m a 20 year old university law student in Australia, 5’5 with dark blonde hair and pretty fit from lots of exercise and playing volleyball ☺️ I consider myself pretty straight, and I’m still a virgin (haven’t been comfortable with a guy yet to change that, but I’m okay with waiting!!)

I’ve never been able to cum with my fingers, and only had my first orgasm with a shower head when I was around 18/19. Since then I’ve always used a vibrator to get myself off, using it on my clit and making myself cum and feel so in tune with my body. Being a virgin, it feels so incredibly important to know my body and what works for me, so this was definitely a night that I’ll remember forever ?

For the past two weeks I have been in my hometown for my universities mid-semester break, my vibrator accidentally left four states and a plane ride away in my dorm and no way I could order a new one online/go out and get one (for a lot of different reasons).

I can’t even tell you how sexually frustrated I’ve been, everything has turned me on: I could honestly get wet in an instant. I’ve had to do assignments for school and haven’t been able to focus because I’m *that* turned on. I’ve been looking up vibrators online looking to buy another one when I get back to university, only to realise that I end up turned on and squirming in my seat because all I can think about is it buzzing on my clit and making me cum.

Last night it was late and I was in bed and turned on, just wearing a little singlet top and panties, and slipped my hand down my waist to start touching myself. I knew the likelihood of me cumming was slim to none, but I was also determined to give it my best shot and try to release at least some of the tension. All day I’d been talking to a guy on Tinder who I’d known for a while, and we’d been teasing each other all day – I was aching and needed so badly to cum, wishing that I had my vibrator with me or even a shower head that was detachable.

I went onto GWA looking for something to listen to (Usually I choose some Mdom M4F or m4m, go figure), and randomly saw a Fdom F4F post that intrigued me. I’m pretty submissive and really really like being told what to do. I clicked on it and put my headphones in, thinking it would probably not turn me on but oh boy was I wrong.

I can usually feel pretty submissive listening to a guy telling me what to do, or turned on listening to a m4m audio, but listening to a girl was a completely different experience. I felt submissive instantly, almost nervous and I kept having to squeeze my thighs together because I wasn’t ‘allowed’ to touch myself yet. I felt so out of my own head, just listening to her tell me what to do and how to touch myself. I’ve never listened to any F4F audios, but this one made me re think my previous decisions!

I touched my nipples and it felt so unusually good; they’re usually not very sensitive (they were this time though!!) and by the time I started touching my clit like she said I was having to stop myself from whimpering/moaning. The dom tone in her voice just made me feel so incredibly submissive, turning me on so so much.

Halfway through, I had the thought of putting a pillow between my legs and started humping it. I had tried this before and it had never felt very good, but this time was so different. I felt so needy and desperate, almost embarrassed that I was humping a pillow to get myself off – but it only turned me on more.

It might sound strange, but I’ve always been really turned on with thinking of someone watching me, telling me how to hump or grind my clit on things and describing how desperate I am, teasing me/a little bit of humiliation for the fact that I’m so horny and frustrated that I’ll rub against anything to get off.

I was rocking my hips and squeezing the pillow between my thighs, somehow the feeling coming back to my clit. I could already feel how wet I was and the pillow getting a wet patch as I rolled my clit over and over it.

I stopped using the pillow and laid on my back, moving my legs close together (it always feels more intense this way for some reason) and touching my clit. It’s usually very very small, but it somehow felt way bigger than it normally way, making my legs tense up.

The voice on the audio was still playing, and I don’t know when I started cumming or if this was me cumming at all, but I know is that it lasted a good few minutes. This yummy, warm feeling went throughout my entire body and just stayed there, feeling like I was almost having a tiny, long orgasm that just kept going. My fingers moved in little circles over my clit and my nipples were so sensitive and hard, I could even feel my wetness from my pussy on my inner thighs.

Suddenly I pressed down on my clit just slightly harder and a bigger orgasm started, making my legs tense up just a little and my pussy pulse so so much. I moaned quietly as to not wake anyone up, still moving my fingers at a steady pace over my clit and feeling the orgasm go through me. I had the audio still playing in my ears, telling me to let go and cum for the girl in the audio, and my body finally having an orgasm with just my fingers. I can’t even describe how amazing it felt. Thinking about it now is making me extra horny, and I’m probably going to have a ‘study break’ and try do it again.

I pretty much just laid in bed and mentally high fived myself and couldn’t stop smiling/feeling so proud and pleased with myself and so sexy!! I sounds weird, but it made me feel so much more feminine and confident. I don’t know what made this finally happen, maybe it was the audio, the fact I hadn’t cum in two weeks, the pillow humping, who knows!

I went to sleep with the pillow between my thighs just to have a bit more stimulation, and woke up literally humping it (I think I’ve found a new favourite way to get off/I really really want to try cumming just from humping a pillow next time)

I know this is not the best GWS but I felt like I needed to tell someone because masturbation rocks and it is so empowering!!!!!

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/d2k8lg/i_f_masturbated_and_had_an_orgasm_for_the_first