I have a pretty giant secret, it’s a huge part of my identity, and I’ve never actually had a real conversation about it in my life. So, even though this may be long, I’m going to tell the whole thing.
First things first, I think of myself as an expert at what I do. Maybe that’s fucked up, I don’t know.. But, I have a set of ground rules for safety that drastically reduces any risk, so I don’t want to hear about it. I know what I’m doing. I know the risks involved. I’m on prep, a drug that reduces the possibility of hiv transmission by 99%. I have had the hpv vaccination. I get tested regularly. I have a concealed carry permit, and carry a ruger lcr (a small and easily concealed gun) that I’ve never had to use (even if I’ve been in my share of weird and uncomfortable situations). Amongst other things.
I’ve been sucking cock on the down low pretty much my whole life, and my cousin made me this way.
When I was around nine or ten years old, my cousin caught me fooling around with another boy I used to play with. Normal kid shit, exploring, not even really understanding what we were doing. It was hardly even a sexual thing. Soon after that, he started showing me his penis, letting me touch it, and teaching me why it got hard and about sex. It wasn’t long until it developed into me sucking him off pretty much all the time.
I sucked him off for years. Until I turned fourteen or fifteen, when he moved to New York.
Somewhere along the way over those years I went from being ignorant, to knowing full well that I was being taken advantage of. And I definitely developed a sexual desire to be used.
A few months before my cousin left for New York, he introduced me to a very active gay cruising spot that was actually pretty close to my house, if you were riding a bike. It was in the woods of a park off of the walking trails. When he first took me there we caught a few older men with their dicks out jerking off. They immediately stopped and put them away as quickly as they could. My cousin took out his dick, and I followed his lead and dropped my basketball shorts. One of the men immediately left. Most definitely because of my age. We were able to join the other two, and I sucked everyone off.
After my cousin left I went there pretty much every day after school, most weekends, and I’d spend huge chunks of my summers there.
It wasn’t long after I found the cruising spot that I learned about Craigslist’s M4M Casual Encounters from one of the men there.
I would post ads looking to suck cock on slow days or even at night after the cruising spot had seen its last visitor. I would meet men in their cars or ride my bike to their homes, and eventually I had quite a few regulars. One of which would pick me up from school sometimes, buy me clothes and CDs, and even let me fuck his wife when I wanted (a 47 year old woman who took an interest and sort of became a mentor type figure to me).
It was her advice that caused me to get brave at school (I was a freshman in high school at this point). I started asking other boys if they wanted their cocks sucked on the down low in hushed tones at opportunistic moments. With her help, I got very good at convincing my class mates that having a warm mouth to bust a nut in, even if it was a dude’s mouth, was a good idea. Nobody would ever know after all, and I never wanted anything in return.
The single stall bathrooms at Spruce Creek High School became my own personal spot to suck cock at. Soon enough I had my regulars there too.
I even sucked off my bully quite a few times, once even on the bus. Which was actually how that started. I can’t remember the full exchange, but once as he was harassing me (as he liked to do on the bus) he told me to “Suck his dick.” Though he wasn’t serious, it gave me the idea. He sat at the back of the bus, and he and I were among the last students to be dropped off. When he was the only one left back there I went and let him know that I would actually suck his dick anytime he wanted and it would be a total secret. It took some convincing, and at one point I thought he would punch me, but I turned it around and sucked his dick and swallowed his load right there to prove I was serious.
Even though he still harassed me quite often, was always a dick to me whenever we spoke and didn’t even really speak to me otherwise, he did use me a lot for a while. At the All Children’s Park (a different park), mornings before school out behind the portables (he refused to go to the one stall bathrooms), I also snuck in his bedroom window some nights. Though he wasn’t the only person from school I did those things for he was the first person to fuck me and cum up my ass. He pretty much pressured me into it. I obviously let him, but he did kind of force me. Though I was able to buy some time to learn how to relax my anus for him. My “mentor” (the 47 year old woman) taught me how with her fingers and one of her vibrators.
He really made me feel used. I can still feel the cold morning air, being in the doggy position on the wet dewy grass with my ass in the air, and the feeling of being out in the open at school with just distance and a rarely used portable to block us from view. I remember the cold lube being squirted on my asshole. How he used to just pull out after he nutted, got up, and left without saying a word to me.
He ended up getting a girlfriend, and I ended up convincing another regular to fuck me out behind the portables before school sometimes.. I really enjoyed that. I don’t know what it was. Maybe it was the risk of getting caught? How exposed it was? Or just how horny and eager to bust a nut the people were who fucked me out there?
I really liked sucking dick under the bleachers too. But, that was just stupid because that’s where everyone went to fuck, and it was well known. Still, I would suck dick there too sometimes. I almost got caught once just as I was leaving, but they thought we were smoking weed or something. The deputy searched us and didn’t find anything and we both convinced her that we weren’t fucked up (because we weren’t).
This is what I copy and paste everywhere on the internet, on dating sites and apps, and gay hookup sites and apps.
(You can make use of this add if you live in or near Daytona Florida, or just want to send me a dick pic even.)
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Yes, I will suck your cock.
No strings attached and 100% on the down low.
I can host at my place from 8am to 4pm on weekdays.
I will also suck you in a wooded public area, a public bathroom, or any other cruisy place if you would like to meet there.
(727) 339-0998
Text a cock pic in first message
Text only
You don’t even have to speak to me if you don’t want to. Just take out your cock and I will get to work. After you empty your balls in my mouth and I swallow your sperm, you can zip up and get on with your day.
You may use me once, or as often as you like.
If you have used me before and you see me alone in public you may pull me to the side and use me in your car, a public bathroom, or a secluded spot nearby.
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I’ve sucked off men in the Volusia Mall’s bathroom, the bathroom of Lowe’s, behind the old Port Orange Six movie theater, and even in the stairwell of the Ocean Walk parking garage due to that last policy.
I have sucked countless dicks in my life, even though I don’t really take it up the ass often or without protection.. I’ve probably let 50 or so men fuck me too.
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/bnomm6/my_cousin_molded_me_into_a_habitual_dl_nsa_gay
Bravo man.