Warning!!! I’m going into full extent of how I was raped and how it’s still effecting me after +15 years even with years of therapy.
I went in a all boy elementary and middle school. It was very common to see mucho/alpha boys to beat up other kids and sexually assault them. There was this boy name “Z” who was known to have raped at least 3 boys and kids were terrified of him.
My story with Z began when I was in class and he casually asked if it’s cool if I let me have sex with me just 1 time. I panicked and said NO OF COURSE NOT!! keep in mind this kid was physically tougher and looked more 18 than 12. Anyhow I was with group of friends and we used to go out after school (in my country, it was very common for kids to walk home). So once time we all went to this Video Game club to play Fifa and Z decided to come with us. After some game, I wanted to use the restroom and he followed me. There were 3 bathrooms and they were all in use, so I waited till it’s my turn. Then Z jumped in the rest room and told me to come in otherwise he’ll beat me up. I got scared and said ok I’m only gonna pee and leave and nothing else.
Next he closed the door behind him, forced his was to unlock my belt, pulled my pants down and started to get down on me. I didn’t like it and I kept telling him to please stop because it’s freaking gross. After 2 mins, he said I have to return the favor to him. Either suck him or let him rub his thing on my back. He promised not to go in and that’s what I accepted. He made me put both of my hands on the wall, asked me to curve my back and before I know he was in me. The surprising thing was I remember I was hard and dripping. He had his was with me and finished inside me once he was done. I remember when I walked home, my cheeks were sliding up and down without any friction because of his white stuff.
After he was done, he gave me a quarter and siad here’s is your money. I told him just leave me alone and I don’t want money, he said he’ll he waiting for me tomorrow. Luckily nothing happened till the next 6 months in train at night when we were going to a field trip from school.
The train had many cabins and each cabin could fit like 6 people. Beds were 3 stacked on each side. Our cabin was only me and 3 other kids. The first trip was about 24 hours. On that night, he asked one of the kids if he could switch his sit with him at nighy and that kid said yes. I was terrified but I had no choice but to shut up because it was too embracing for me to tell elders that I’ve been raped.
So my 2nd and last sexual assault started around 10 pm and lasted till morning. As soon as Z came in, he came to my bed, covered us with a blanket and pulled down my pj. To be very honest, I was more than willing to play with him and please him as long as he didn’t penetrate me which he did. For a good half an hour, he was sliding his thing on my back and and touching me every where. If he said turn around, I would turn. I did everything he said up until the last when he asked me to suck him. I said no but he punched my side and made me suck his d and balls and also lick his behind. When I was going down on him, i looked to my side and noticed kids in my cabin saw what was going on and right after they all (Z with 3 other kids) came to my bed and took turn on me. I ended up swallowing 2 guys and the other 2 finished in me.
After they all finished, thet decided to put stuff such as their fingers, pen and pencils in me.
What confuses me the most is I can’t say u DID NOT enjoy any of their acts. There were parts that i liked a lot and parts that I hated. But for sure i never said I wanted any of these. I think this was rape. It is still in my head, even though now I’m married and have 3 beautiful children.
This is a throw away account btw. I don’t know what to make of those time. It’s just so weird and I wish it never happened to me.
Source: reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/biuc2k/my_rape_story_when_i_was_young