No sex, but I can’t stop thinking about what happened yesterday (47M+19F)

I have a nephew who is 19 years old. I've known him since he was about 7 (he's on my wife's side). He is good friends with a family that his dad is connected to in various ways. One of the members of that family is Valerie, who is now also 19. I met her many years ago when she was little. She was always a really nice kid and I enjoyed spending time with her. Very polite and fun.

Anyway, I would see her periodically over the years, and it was cool to watch her grow up. As she got older, she really developed into a very pretty girl. For whatever reason, the two of us kind of connected. Obviously not in an inappropriate way, but as she got older there were a few times where it just felt awkward, for lack of a better word. She was a kid who seemed to have a thing for me, and I was 30 years older than her.

Some time went by and I didn't see her at all for a number of years. There was a divorce and as a result we just didn't spend time with her or her family. She lived on the other side of the country, so other than seeing her on Facebook, there was no contact. Until yesterday.

She came to visit my nephew, and we all wound up at the same house. I was really excited to see her, to be honest. Seeing her on Facebook, I could tell she had just continued to blossom. But seeing her in person was really great. She shook my hand hello, and although I wanted to give her a hug, it felt awkward. She looked amazing. Her face seems to be always smiling.

We all sat together and caught up. I watched her as she talked, looking at her face but also catching glimpses of her body. She had great breasts, and some really wonderful curves. I felt her looking at me on occasion as I talked to others.

After a while, she and my nephew decided to go into the hot tub. I thought about joining them, but it was inappropriate for a lot of reasons. She went upstairs to get changed, and my heart was pounding, thinking about what she would be wearing when she came back. I knew though that she was very spiritual and conservative, so I didn't expect anything crazy. Sure enough, she came downstairs and asked my nephew to bring her a towel before any of us could see her in her bathing suit. I was disappointed, but her innocence made her even more appealing to me.

After a while, I had to use the bathroom,which was in the master bedroom upstairs. The same room where she had gotten changed. I came out of the bathroom, and saw a pair of jeans on the bed. Her jeans. I ran my hand over them and they still felt warm from her body.

I knew I shouldn't be doing what I did, but I couldn't stop myself. I unfolded the jeans and saw her grey sweater. Under the sweater, I could see a bright pink bra strap. I was surprised to see such bold underwear from someone so conservative. I picked the bra up and held it in my hands, imagining it still covering her breasts. Then, I saw her panties on the bed. Never in my life have I seen such sexy, skimpy panties. They were a thong, with a leopard print on the front panel. The rest was basically just strings, which I pictured just buried in her curves. I picked up the panties and could feel her warmth and smell her scent. I desperately wanted to see them on her body and touch her.

I came back downstairs and shortly after that she and my nephew came out of the hot tub. We talked a bit longer and then I had to go. I dreamt about her last night. I can't remember details but I thought about her when I woke up. I don't know when I'll see her again.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/3r9b9l/no_sex_but_i_cant_stop_thinking_about_what