Sooo long story short, i found out my BF was cheating on me and then went to a bar, i was obviously a little angry and didn’t wanna be around men so it was a bar for gay women (I figured i’d be left alone more easily there), i kinda forgot it was a gay bar after like 20 mins of sitting there sad and a girl came over and started talking to me, she was really nice, sweet and funny so i kinda just spoke with her for like 3 hours. Aaaaand woke up in her bed.. (We were both naked, she was like wrapped around me, her legs on mine gently shifting against them.. i.. actually kind of enjoyed the feeling of her snuggling into me aaaand that makes me embarrassed) I’m straight so this is like.. just confusing as hell for me, i’ve never even thought about girls like that never mind actually wanting to do it. So it’s utterly confusing and i’m a little lost in all honesty, not helped by the fact i’m (110%) straight and my mom would muuuurder me if she knew what happened.
I don’t even really know what i was doing in the bar anyway, i hadn’t even drank before.. (And they should have checked my age lol) guess the BF stuff just messed me up. the reason he gave for cheating is that i wouldn’t sleep with him (Honestly him cheating was the high point, he wasn’t a nice man and i’m glad it’s over, not a nice person) :/ I’m very shy and timid, also i had never had sex so i was kinda scared of doing it with him or anybody really. I don’t really remember much from last night other than talking in the bar and going to her house.
From what i do remember, she was very, very sweet and caring. We laughed and talked a lot and i felt sort of safe with her (which is what i needed.) I just wish it didn’t go that far. I do feel sort of.. grossed out, embarrassed and even a little humiliated (Not to mention i feel a little sore..) about it and honestly i’m not sure what i’m posting this for, it’s probably not the type of post that should be on this reddit as it’s a more “get off my chest” type i guess.. so sorry about that. buuuut if any guys (or gals.. i don’t judge..) want to picture it or what happened or anything i will describe myself (and her..)
I’m 4’11”, I have long brown hair (Dark ish, with lighter highlights at the bottom), I have dark brown eye’s (really dark, think almost black), I’m really pale, i have 28 A cups, I kind of have a big nose, aaaand no idea what else to say XD (I am very shy i have Asperger’s soooo that might explain that, i struggle talking to new people without looking at the floor terrified)
And now her.. as if her body was burned into my mind enough from when i woke up.. She had long red hair, Green eye’s, pale skin, she was about 5’8 i’d say maybe around that height anyway, she had bigger boobs that me (obvs..) i’d say maybe C cups?, really, really long, smooth legs, a few freckles, red lips and a toned tummy.
She did give me her number in the bar.. buuuut i think i’m just going to leave this in the past.. don’t need to feel even more sexually confused XD
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/7uy4wy/ff_a_drunken_mistake_basically_no_detail_of_the
call her!
Well you know, when you feel good around someone you shouldn’t care about their gender. You really seem to like her.
I actually believe your only reason not to go with her is your family so you won’t be called names when going with another girl.
I’m not saying you shouldn’t care about your family. I am just saying you should care about your own happiness. Especially after what happened with your BF. You know, most gays can be way more caring about i other, because they care about the person, not the gender.
In my honest opinion you should shoot her a text if you are too shy to call her. Just be honest and tell her everything. You’ve got nothing to lose, just something to gain.
If you are still worried I’d gladly talk to you.
You should call, even if it’s only just to talk. Sounds like she was supportive and that’s what you need right now.
You should at least call her to get some details on the sex … And share them with us!
I’m going to go against the grain here and say you should take some time to figure yourself out before pursuing anything further with this woman. You’re in a vulnerable state (which she already took advantage of…) and clearly have some things to think about, both about your previous relationship and about your feelings around this situation. Good luck!
You had a gay experience, so what? There’s nothing wrong with that at all. Human sexuality is very complex, and it’s a spectrum. It’s very much possible to have a gay experience like yours and decide “Well I didn’t enjoy that at all. Definitely never doing that again.” Or maybe you’re 99% straight and would have gay sex with the right lady under the right circumstances. But nobody knows better than you.