i get A TON of questions about becoming more fem and my overall journey. i got to where i am by finally accepting my little clit meant my purpose was to be a cumdump after getting locked up, cucked, and watching my gf get gangbanged.
warning! this is not some cosplay bs, this is my actual life. so obviously, all this stuff can actually happen. i’m sharing this for two reasons: if you have any masculinity left and wanna keep it, this is a cautionary tale of how to not wind up like me. if you are trying to lose it, this is a great example to follow.
a few years ago my gf hinted that she had fantasies about being with two guys at once. we just finished college early and were both pretty adventurous so i thought it would be worth a try. there was a guy i played with when we were younger. i sent him pics of her and asked if he’d be interested. he was, but said he’d only do it if i looked feminine too. he was always bigger than me when we were younger so it kinda made sense. he asked for her number to send some pics and i gave it to him. the next time i saw my gf she was really excited to pick a date.
i shaved everything and got a wig, bra, heels, thong, skirt, and some accessories. we got a hotel room and my gf did my makeup. we met in the lobby and i was surprised at how big he had gotten. at six-foot something with a wide muscular build he was much larger than my gf and i. he took turns groping us on the way to the room. my gf seemed to like it and encouraged him by hiking up her skirt, and i did the same. when we got to the room he suggested it would be better if i put on a chastity cage. i actually bought one because i thought it would help with hiding everything in my skirt. my gf said she didn’t mind if i started off locked until she felt ready for both of us.
she climbed on top of him and started riding. she immediately got super creamy. i was really confused and actually thought he came early. before that day i only saw stuff like how he was fucking her in porn. he pulled her hair, spanked her, choked her, and threw her around like a ragdoll. i kept expecting her to say our safeword but she just moaned while her stretched out pussy gushed all over his thick cock.
after a bit i asked if i could join but she said she wasn’t ready yet. i waited a few more minutes and got the same answer… after the third time i finally understood she was denying me because she didn’t think i’d have much to add. they fucked for hours and hours and finally he held down her head and came down her throat. i was blown away because she never swallowed my cum and said she didn’t like deepthroating.
after they were done, the guy playfully asked my gf if he should give back the key. she smiled and said yes. i unlocked myself to find that i’d leaked through my panties but was too tired and confused to get hard. my gf fell asleep cuddling on his chest and i slept next to them. after he left in the morning my gf and i got breakfast but didn’t really talk much about the night. the video is on my profile (on the left is what happened that night; on the right is how bored my gf was with my little dick.)
everything changed after that night. our sex got a lot kinkier and my gf kept asking me for bigger dildos and to be rougher with her. she wanted to do more group sex. i wasn’t comfortable with it at first but eventually agreed. we went to a swingers party and it was chill for a while. some guys introduced themselves to us and told us they were interested before moving on. then i went to the bathroom. when i got back i didn’t see my gf and asked a couple we met earlier where she was. they pointed to the back of the room.
my gf was in a gated area at the back of the party getting spitroasted by two of the guys we just met. she was loving it, throwing her ass back hard and gagging on their huge black cocks. the men were almost twice our age. there were three more guys just like them standing around her stroking their long dicks and encouraging her. my little cock shrank close to my body and i felt sick. but, we didn’t talk about boundaries beforehand so i felt like it would be rude or even impossible to interrupt. i went to the other side of the room and looked at my phone, pretending i couldn’t hear how wet she was and the groans the men made as they came. she literally limped over an hour later dazed and giddy. when i asked her for details she could only remember one name from all the guys who fucked her.
she was still cockdrunk when another couple approached us and the girl asked our permission for my gf to suck her bf’s cock with her. i thought i could join in later so i said yes. while they were blowing him i started stroking and asked if they wanted to share my dick. the girl said no. i kept stroking as they both sucked her bf until he came all over their face and tits. they made out with his cum and my gf thanked both of them. when i asked her to finish me she said she was too tired from the rest of the night. i decided it was time to leave.
the next day i told her i felt weird about the night before and didn’t want to do any more group stuff. she was really apologetic and nice about it and things went back to normal for a bit. but after a month she became totally disinterested in vanilla sex and could only get wet enough for me fuck her if she was watching porn, which almost always featured at least two guys with huge dicks. we lasted a few more months until she broke up with me. she said it was for something unrelated but i felt like that night was when it all started.
after she dumped me i hit up the guy from our “threesome”. i felt worthless and wanted to be used by him the way he used her. i didn’t know if he’d be in to me alone but he invited me over on the same condition: that i come to his door completely feminized and locked up. i showed up in a miniskirt that covered about 1/3 of my ass with a huge jewel buttplug already stretching me out.
he didn’t waste any time getting me on my knees and fucking my throat just like my ex. instead of cumming there, he threw me onto his bed and pounded my ass from behind. when i couldn’t stay up anymore he creampied me while i was lying on tummy. i fell in love with the feeling and held his cum in for as long as i could before it oozed onto the sheets.
fast forward a few years and i’m still a regular cumdump for the same guy. he has girlfriends that come and go but whenever he wants to treat someone like he did my gf i show up in my sluttiest outfit ready for him to fuck my brains out. i’m locked up almost all the time because has the key. i became more feminine in and out of the bedroom and started to transition a few months ago. and the best part is i’ve been taking more videos, so expect to see a lot more soon 🥰
Source: reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/124nrpd/how_i_lost_my_gf_21_to_a_guy_m30_who_cucked_me