[MFM] Shared girlfriend with cousin, then friend, then pronstar. Now what?

I’ve shared the journey that my girlfriend and I have been on the last year here in long posts. Now I’m really questioning what it all means and what we do next.

To recap:
Laura and I have been together about 4 years. I’m 26 and she’s 24. It started with us talking about a guy joining in dirty talk, and then became real.

First, my cousin Davide was visiting, he’s a huge player and after some horny discussion we did a standard MFM threesome. That night, while all sleeping together, I woke up to them having sex next to me, which ended up being unprotected anal, which I only realized after he came inside her. A few weeks later we also did a video call where she sucked me while he jacked off.

Then, my best friend from college, Mischa joined us in another unplanned threesome. In this one we talked more upfront about what we wanted. He was a lot rougher and more dominant, and that really turned me on to watch. He came on her face and then I came in her mouth, and afterwards we made out and I realized I was probably tasting his cum.

Most recently things took a major turn. We hadn’t had another experience for almost a year, and so decided to plan one and paid one of our favorite pornstars for a threesome experience. This was a really mindblowing. He was physically huge (6ft 5+) and had an enormous thick cock. He was also just so masculine and dominating – it turned me on to see her with him and made me feel so inferior. At the same time, he was clearly a professional and knew it was an experience he was providing and so I felt like, taken care of by him, he always put her in the best angles, etc. At one point while she was sucking him he demanded she play a lot with his balls, that it was what really got him off. And so after they had 69’d, fucked in tons of positions including him standing holding her in the air and against the wall, and trying anal (she couldn’t handle it)… he was ready to come. He commanded me “go there bitch”, I kissed Laura as he fucked her hard for a few minutes, then he pulled out and put his cock in her mouth, right infront of my face. With his balls basically hitting my cheek, him having said he loves ball play, and this appreciative sense in me to serve him, I began sucking on his balls. He seemed to enjoy it and then moved my head so I was licking more his asshole and taint. When he came he had one shot on Laura, but most on my face. He pulled her up to make out with her, and while he did that, put his cock in my mouth and I sucked out the last of his precum.

This was about a month ago. Since then Laura and I have been having amazing sex incredibly regularly. We never talked specifically about my role in the last threesome, just that things got “crazy”. I know we’ll probably do something like this again. I just wonder now – what should we do? Do I want to be more involved? Does this make me a cuckold or gay or what?

These experiences have been the most fun of my life, but also the most emotionally confusing. Would love any thoughts or advice.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/11590d5/mfm_shared_girlfriend_with_cousin_then_friend