Hello! My name is Blake(not really). I posted this a month ago or so and got self conscious and removed it so some may remember. I feel better due to comments and messages, plus things might be progressing :P. Any and all advice is appreciated, this is a wild time in my life that could lead to things I’ve never expected in my sexual life ever. Enjoy your stay:)
Backstory about me
To start, I’m 23, 5 foot 9. I go to the gym often for a skinny guy being only 140 pounds. Not shredded by any means but think I’m fairly fit. Got lucky with some blue gray eyes depending on the sunlight changing how blue they are. Even more lucky with a 7 inch cock which has done fairly well for me. I believed myself to be a straight male. True and true love women and are extremely attracted to most women. I’d say 99% of men are not attractive to me, while 99% of women are attractive to me. Idk if it’s like that for most straight men or what but just how I feel. Not many ugly women on this globe. I am very, for lack of a better term, an extremely horny male. I almost adapt to whatever my partner is into because it works for her and I just must be a people pleaser because I love diving into my partners kinks and fantasies. I also pride myself with being open minded. Like why not try anything once. Pussy looked gross first time you saw it too and I watch lesbian porn daily lol
Anyways, back to trying anything once. A couple girlfriends ago we threw around the idea of anal. She being against it joked only if I take it before she did. I think my exact words were “bet” lmao. She was stunned couldn’t wait to try it. Which then we played around with butt plugs, rimming, finger play. Loved it btw. Like never have I came harder in my life. But fair to say I’m addicted to anal play to the point where I have multiple toys including prostate massagers, butt plugs and within the last couple months my favorite toy being this 7 inch dildo. Way more than most straight males have especially since I’ve never bothered with getting a flesh light or any stroking assistance.
Less about me more story
Long time friend from long ago, his name is Tony(also not really). We worked together for a bit then faded away. Well Tony happens to be super mega gay. Like the kinda gay that looks at a straight man and try’s to find the gay inside him. Knowing he’s straight. Well he’s always semi flirted with me. I never really cared just more of a confidence boost than an option to ever be considered. And by compliments like I’m talking complimenting my body ,my looks, my personality. Nothing against females but I tend to rarely get those compliments from women especially ones I haven’t started a sexual relationship with. (We need more compliments ladies pls :p)
Over the last couple months I’ve been thinking of messaging him just to reach out for no “real reason.” Then I get a text from him. We start catching up normal stuff and then he tries flirting for the most aggressive time I can remember. First he admits I’ve been his crush for years which I’ve semi known. I kinda play into it if I’m being honest. Which I’m sure he noticed. Because kept pushing. He said
“You have such a big personality and a bigger cock.”
“You seen it?” Me trying to maintain my straightness like I don’t want his dick inside me. He says
“No just heard good stories and his imagination gets the best of him sometimes.”
“Yeah?”
He asks “Tbh always wanted to see how big you actually are”
“Tony relax lmao really got confident since I seen you.”
“Yeah I just would love a nude”
This is a point of the conversation where it can go a lot of different ways. Before here I have still maintained my straightness. But after the compliments, the couple years of anal play, the thoughts in my head since receiving the dildo if the real thing would be better. I tell him I’m for sure not sending any nudes cause I’m not about that (lol sorry buzzkill) but I admit that I’m not against where this conversation is going.
“I may be a little bi curious if we’re being honest.” Like a tiger he bounces on that and attacks the little gay he found in me immediately. He pretty much begs for me to send my cock. Personally, I have never sent nudes before sex due to trust issues so my end of the convo will be words not pictures
“Did you want to see mine first?”-tony
“It’s okay I’m sorry I just wanna talk” I feel semi bad cause I’m kinda killing the vibe
“I’ll just send mine you don’t have to”
“You sure? You really don’t have to.”
“I think it’d be good for you to see if your interested in this kinda thing.”
“I mean if you do can it be a video?”
He then proceeds to send me a video of him like really jerking off. Pretty hard.
Personally seeing the video at first didn’t do much for me. But the strange thing is I’ve watched it like 25 times the past week lol. Definitely gets me hard. I think he’s shorter than me but a bit thicker. Surprising to me he’s uncircumcised which I am not. So little more things to think about.
Conversation from then on drifts off(think I cummed back to reality and we both realized how crazy this convo was). He had no clue I was 1% gay prior to talking to me today and I had no intentions of admitting that information to anyone. Not really sure what to do with all this but I can’t lie and say I’m not a bit excited for the future.
He unfortunately moves for work but being Christmas season, he will be open until new years so things have a couple weeks if anything will happen.
Final statements and questions
I guess the point of me posting this at all is to hear from you guys on where I should go from here. Also am I doing this right? I think I’m just trying to experiment as a late 20 year old. Because truly, when I think of it, or look at the picture he sent, I don’t get any arousal from a homosexual man. As a super horny male, I get aroused(hard) just picking up a toy to do anal play with. Or hearing one attractive statement from a female will do the same. I really do believe I’m not gay and could never be in a relationship with a man for anything more than sex. So advice on letting him know that? Ideally this is just something fun and a test to see how much I enjoy it. Dont want to hurt him he’s just a slutty gay man trying to find happiness.
If you made it this far I really want to thank you. I do plan on giving updates there will be breaks but I will return with more Juice soon. Any comments/questions I will be reading and answering. Also any advice might get tried out. Thanks! ;)
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/zuyc6q/im_reconnected_with_my_childhood_friendm_to
I read til the end because it connects with my story. I’m 62 now and have fully embraced my bi tendency. I am attracted to women. Like you, I really don’t find men attractive. What I am attracted to is cock. Oral and now anal since exploring with my dildo. The only toys I’ve bought and used.
My introduction to my desire was in my 20s with an older guy. I was horny and he hit on me at the right time. I had been approached in my late teens but wasn’t interested. This time I just went with my hormones. Decades later, I embraced it. Still, I’m not romantically attracted to guys just horny and like the variety. My wife is accepting of this and we have our ground rules when it comes to me fulfilling my needs.
What I did was open up to her about my bi side when we were dating. She loves it. She is into playing with my ass but not in pegging.
In reflecting on my past, I think I would advise my younger self to have explored more. What I’ve learned is just having honest and open conversations about your sexuality and especially, boundaries and expectations is the precursor to any encounter.
You have opened a door with him, explain clearly what you are thinking and let him know what you would want to gain from any experience. Be clear with him that it is strictly sex and nothing more. If he can accept that and isn’t trying to turn it into a more intimate relationship, then you could decide to go ahead or end it there.
Being confident in your sexuality and exploring it within the boundaries you establish is freeing. It’s a matter of ensuring the partner is on the same page in the same book as you.
For me it was about being honest with myself and realizing my sexual desires are just that. Do I know why, nope! I have lived many years with no interest in pursuing anything other than a monogamous relationship with the woman I’m with. However, when the desire strikes me I’m not ashamed of it nor I’m I shamed. If everyone in on it is good then it’s all good.
Female dtf here 👆
Yeah, the biggest concern is the gay guy. Be SUPER HONEST that you want to explore and you feel good about him to experiment with BUT it would never lead to a relationship. He might be down to just bang. Some gay guys don’t mind to be a fun experience for the straight dudes occasionally. Some are real sick of exactly that and want someone to love them, not just use them as a science experiment and then pretend they never knew them. Be very real and let him make his own choice. Just don’t be a bad guy and shun him after you done him.