Stay at my side Ch.18 [M/F] [Friends to lovers] [cuddles] [waking up together]

Chapter 18: Fulfilled

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I always imagined the heart as a place you needed to fill with the love of the people around you. When you are just a child, the love of your parents is more than enough for that. Growing older, your heart gets bigger and you need to find friends to not have an empty space in your heart.

I never had that many close friends but with Matt at my side I never had a lack of it. I also had my parents and Mia with me and I never imagined that one of these three could vanish one day.

I didn’t even told Matt what has happened at home. I wasn’t ready to speak about it now. Remembering how my parents made their own kids responsible for their failed marriage had ripped a hole in my heart not even Matt could fill.

I hurt so much that I sometimes even thought, that I would throw up. And this even though I still got Matt and Mia.

I didn’t wanna know what would happen with me if I were to lose one of them. Mia would stay with me, she was my sister and Matt would also stay with me, as a best friend. At least for the next years.

The problem with Matt was, that he had the ability to fill the hole in my heart. Not as a best friend, but as my partner. I somehow always saw him as not just a friend and deep down I knew he also felt this way. It wasn’t the confession that would be hard. If we were a couple, and I would get even more love from him, I risked loosing it all and this would probably be my end.

My head was so full of thoughts, that I was completely overwhelmed by everything. I couldn’t do anything and as soon as I touched Matt, I couldn’t let go. I just wished for him to make all these decisions. I didn’t trust myself with these things. He always found the best solution for me, he would make the right choice. I knew this was egoistic but I just had no other way. I tried to make it easier for him by telling him everything I thought and just trusted him.

When we kissed, I knew I slightly hoped for this outcome. I could forget everything around me. I only needed him. Everything else was unimportant. I couldn’t remember how long and how often we kissed, but when we parted for the last time I knew we made the right decision. I felt so light. I rested my head on his chest and fell asleep soon after.
Tomorrow I would wake up to a new part of my life. It wouldn’t be easy, to deal with these new problems, but I wasn’t afraid. I knew Matt would be there for me.

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This new Chapter of my life started with confusion. Disorientation to be exact. I was still processing what had happened last night. Has it been a dream? No, we really kissed us. I just felt that.

I didn’t lay on top of him anymore. Instead I laid next to him on my back, whereas he was on his stomach. Before I could be sad about this, I noticed the weight of his arm on me. He still held me. A warm feeling developed in my chest. My chest? Right, his hand laid directly on my chest. He was cupping my left breast in his sleep. Not squeezing but his hand had adapted to the shape of my boob.

I almost laughed, when I thought about him noticing this when he’d wake up. He would be totally embarrassed, even though I didn’t mind this at all. He was sleeping anyway and I even liked it. He was very gentle, even in his sleep and I enjoyed the intimacy, that got created by him cupping by boobs.

When I looked at him, I saw he was drooling a little and this somehow made my heart melt. This was the face I wanted to wake up to. This innocent looking,  messy face that was currently wetting the pillow. I had to resist the urge to kiss him right then and there. I didn’t wanna wake him up. I just looked at him.

Luckily I didn’t have to wait for long. Some minutes passed before he opened his eyes and noticed me looking at him. He gave me a confused smile, while trying to sort his thoughts. It took some seconds before he noticed his hand on my breast. I quickly grabbed it, before he could pull it away. “Nonononono, this one stays right here.” I pressed his hand down and surprisingly he didn’t resist. “If you say so…” He was way to tired to fight back and I guessed he enjoyed this too. After some moments he took the lead again. “Come here.”

It was the second time we kissed. It felt as amazing as the first time, but we both had to find out that morning breath was a thing. After looking a little irritated, we both started laughing. It was two friends laughing about what they did. It felt good knowing that this friendship-spirit wasn’t gone.

“I promised my sister, that we would make breakfast today. We still got some time, but I wanted to let you know.” I nodded and then turned my back to him. “Well, if we got time…” He quickly understood and pulled me against him. I closed my eyes against and enjoyed the warmth of his body and the one in my chest, which wound most people call love.

I was safe with him. He knew me and how to care for me. We finally had taken this step after nearly 13 years of friendship and I couldn’t be more happy. I didn’t exchange a best friend for a partner. I gained a partner and had strengthened the bond to my best friend.

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