My bf(31m) helped me explore a new kink of mine(f25) [MF]

It all started when a couple days ago I got way too high and fucked my bf(m31). That day I was so high my body felt completely relaxed and it almost felt like the body high from doing shrooms. If I stayed still long enough I would just loose sense of where my body was. This resulted in me feeling like I existed to just get fucked and enjoy being fucked. Mix in some light bdsm and you got yourself some good sub space right there. We chose the not so glamorous term “fuck puddle” for this state.

Well the day after I said I wanted to try again. My bf heard this walked to get our gummies and put it in my mouth while telling me he wanted me to be a fuck puddle. Him being dominant while making me eat the gummy flipped something in me. I realized I wanted to RP him forcing me to take drugs and fucking me when I was too high to be able to stop him. Also cannabis is legal where we live.

We ended up discussing in detail an elaborate fantasy. We started to combine some elements of different fantasies and the end result was pretty complicated. I can elaborate if people want, but the gist of it being I was an elf and he kept kidnapping, drugging and fucking me. We discussed that I had run away from this situation 7 times prior and each time I staid for longer and was easier to catch. We decided to RP the day that I admitted that I wanted to be his dirty slut and wanted to give up all my responsibilities to stay and be his pet. We double checked our safe word and got started.

We were RPing all day (11am-2am). He would force me to take bong rips where he lit the bowl and decided when to pull it. I had no control over how much I was smoking or when. Also at some point he force fed me a gummy and checked my mouth to make sure I had finished it. I was so high everywhere he touched me felt hot and I was barely aware of being in our room and not the fantasy cabin in the woods I had been envisioning. The dirty talk was mostly him kink shaming me and pretending to coerce me to give up being a functional member of society to be his pet slut.

I’d say it took me about half the time before I would admit it. After that he was focused on making me know I was too much of a dirty slut to ever want to do anything else. Got to the point where I requested anal, multiple times. I haven’t had anal in years because I have always hated it. Not yesterday, nothing but enjoyment from it. We messed around with DP with him in my ass and one of our toys in my pussy while I rode his cock. All during this I would flip between moments of clarity and telling him that I wasn’t a dirty slut and it was just the drugs that were causing me to act like that. In return he would start doing something to give me more pleasure until I would get into it then stop and have me beg to have him start again.

He ended up taking videos intermittently. Which is normal for us but we both have a foot fetish so it is usually focused on that. He kept asking me if I thought a respectable woman would let him take videos of me and post them on reddit. Asking how could I think I was anything but I dirty slut when I was obviously getting so wet knowing he was filming me.

I don’t think there was ever a time during the day that I wasn’t wet. We did take a nap and ordered door dash but even in those moments he kept up with the dirty talk. I have had some dirty sex but this is the first time I have RP’d something like this. I feel like smoking weed isn’t going to be as nice now if he isn’t going to force me to do it then fuck me till I can’t move. I want to take a week off work to just be his drugged up pet slut. I don’t know if this kink is CNC or what it would qualify as but I want to do it more.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/vr9ku2/my_bf31m_helped_me_explore_a_new_kink_of_minef25