There isn’t much to report from high school. I made out with a lot of girls. That was cool and all but I was a horny teenage boy and I wanted to fuck…. I always got “prudes” as we called them where I was from.
My senior year I changed schools. Fresh meat. Quickly I found a girlfriend who would have sex. At this point I still considered myself a virgin. Guys didn’t count, im talking about real sex. And that one girl didn’t count, it was brief and neither of us came.
This girl and I did it pretty regularly. She was pretty cute, had big excellent tits, but had kind of a bad reputation at that school for being kind of a slut I guess and getting suspended for weed and Xanax or some shit. I didn’t care about that, let’s fuck!
I’m pretty sure every time was in the back of my car. Which thats fine, just not comfortable. I’m not sure what happened with her. Maybe I got bored or something and we broke up. That year I also turned 18. I was also a little open about “being bi” as I said and tried experimenting with guys. When I turned 18, I soon started an AFF account. A whole world of horny dudes were there. I only got a month worth with my dads credit card, which I later got in trouble for. This also lead to my parents asking if I was gay.
Another important detail is my sister introduced me to speed around this time, which lasted about 10 months for me. I didn’t realize how horny, sexual, but mostly focused on gay things it would make me.
First there was a guy down the road. He was married but his wife allowed him to have their shed be his porn man cave. It had a couch, big flat screen, and countless porn dvds. He mostly wanted to berk off together which was disappointing. However he was kind enough to let me suck his cock some, and he sucked me too. He had a nice 7″ dick. I was there maybe an hour before he stood before me and shot a massive load all over my chest and stomach. It was pretty hot. But he wasn’t really into much more than mutual masturbation, so he wasn’t the right person.
I found another guy on there who was a bit older. He was fat, kind of creepy, and his dick wasn’t that big. I think we sucked each other some and I had him take me home.
I dont really remember meeting anyone else on there. I chatted with a lot of people though.
Soon after this I discovered craigslist. For many years this was my dick connection. My 18th year had some good ones though. Here are the highlights….
I met up with this guy at my old high school. We drove to his house the next town over. We hurried in because of his “nosy neighbors.” He was probably late 30s. His cock was maybe 6 or 7 inches. I had a great time with him. We watched some straight porn and traded blowjobs. We laughed at some of the weird shit they did in the video that wasn’t really what people do in sex. Eventually he came all over me. He had the biggest load I’ve ever had. He then finished me off, swallowing every drop. Afterwards he took me home and we never saw each other again.
I met another guy around this time downtown. He was in drag and I was very interested. We exchanged numbers. I met with him probably 5 or 6 times, and he was never in drag those times,, which was fine. He was a mixed guy with longer hair and a big uncut 9″ cock. He would walk over to the unused car wash by his house where we would park and play. This was my first uncut dick. Sucking it was different, but fine. We had some nice times, just oral on a few of them. He also topped me the other few times. This was when I learned that uncut dicks feel good in my ass. Their foreskin prevented it from hurting. Nevertheless, he knew he was hung and was gentle. I told him I didn’t want him to cum in my ass and he always pulled out and came on me instead. It was nice. Much better than my first guy.
One night I went to his house. We went to his room where he had a twin bed on the floor. We started off just sucking some cock. We took turns and 69d some. Eventually it was time to fuck. This time, I was face down and he was on top. It was good as usual but this time he came in my ass, even though I asked him to pull out when he was going to cum again. All those great times went out the window and I was grossed out again. I never saw him again.
Around this time I tasted cum for the first time as well. I found this guy on Craigslist and he came over one day while my parents were working. He was also my first black guy. He had a great big black dick, just what I wanted. We took turns giving head on my bed. I had told him I wanted to try to swallow. The idea sounded so fucking hot. Plus that’s the right way to give a blow job. It feels better that way.
When he got close, I got on my knees and he stood in front of me. Soon he was pumping his hot load into my mouth. It was gross. I gagged. But it was fine. He laid with me while I jerked off and came on myself.
Shortly after this, Ifound another guy near my house. I went over one night and we went to his room. He put on some straight porn and we started sucking. He had a very thick and long cock. Again, I told him I wanted to try to swallow. Of course he obliged. He shot his wad and again it was gross and I gagged. Again he lay with me while I finished.
So what gives? I loved eating my own cum. Why were theirs gross? This lead to me being afraid of the cum. But the idea was so fucking hot still. The idea of trading blowjobs for awhile before either swallowing or getting a facial was so hot but I began to get scared every time after that. I would always express my desire for their cum on me and in my throat but at the last second would pull away and aim it either on them or on my chest or belly. This fear/fetish has never gone away. 12 years later i would love to suck a big fat cock with heavy balls and let them cum wherever they wanted to. However I know I would just get scared.
On that note, I always tried to make them cum first. I would lose interest after cumming and often leave them hanging.
That summer was interesting. I met a few “regulars” i would hook up with for several years every now and then. One guy was about a 30 minute drive away. He was maybe 40. It was pretty simple. Id come in his apt, we would get naked, fondle cocks for a moment until someone went down to suck. Then we would take turns, eventually going to the couch. Often straight porn played on TV. His cock wasn’t that great, maybe 5 inches. However, he could face fuck me without me gagging. Too bad he was so nice and not forceful. He was such a giver. He wanted to suck me. He always swallowed. Usually he just came on me but I did swallow him once. There wasn’t much cum and it was pretty watery. I think he masturbated a lot. Often I got a massage after. Sometimes he’d suck me again even! So hell yeah, I could suck some dick, get a nut or two and a massage and not have to worry about making him cum.
Another guy was closer to me. He had a nice cock but he was kind of odd. However he was more dominant which I needed. We traded head until we came. He almost always came first but always wanted to swallow my load too. He would yell when he came which was off-putting.
He definitely came in my mouth once while facefucking me. Again, not great tasting. Usually he would cum on my chest. He was weird and eventually I quit going over there. He was just always available when I was horny.
Another guy lived in the woods nearby. He had a nice 7″ cock. We had nice oral trades and we attempted to fuck each other on several occasions. Our big cocks were too much for each others tight asses though. We didn’t meet up often but it was nice when we did.
There were definitely other one timers this year. I was exploring my gayness fully. If a cock looked grrat and I didn’t cum before going to meet them, I’d go try it. Usually those craigslist meet up had a similar format. I’d show up, we’d get naked, we’d suck dick, I’d leave where there they came or not. Often I just didn’t enjoy it. I enjoyed cunning but that was it. I wanted to leave and forget that I had just had a dick in my mouth. I hated that I was doing it. Was I a sex addict? Damn I wish it was a woman each time. I wish it had been pussy. I still wasn’t attracted to men. I was just horny and if I had to suck some dick to get mine sucked I often would. I did enjoy it some though.
That fall, I hung out with an old friend. We rode around partying all night. We went back to his house and were getting ready for bed. Idk what happened but we ended up blowing each other but finishing ourselves off.
I’m tired, ill add an edit tomorrow.
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