Tick.. Tick… Tick…
The clock passed midnight.
It’s the 8th of may.
My birthday.
Nothing ever feels different – Every year is exactly the same.
People say it’s bad luck to say out loud what you wished for, but maybe if I make my wish clear on beforehand. You know? Before I blow out the candles? Then it’s not the same as any year, plus I don’t do harm to anything I wished. Because the moment of making the wish hasn’t occurred yet.
That will be later once the blown out candles start smoking, that’s the sign of a sealed deal.
Like white smoke when a new Pope is chosen.
You know what I mean? You see how ny mind is making these stupid assumptions in order to find loopholes?
So maybe if I say it out loud, right into the universe, maybe, then just maybe it will be different.
Today is my 30th birthday.
And I wish to finally be able to FUCK.
Yes, in all capital letters. I want my virginity gone.
I want my v-card expired.
My lifelong generalized anxiety drawn away to the background and finally cease the momentum to get the best thing in life.
At least in my assumption it would be the best thing in the world.
I wish I found a nymfomane.
With the same hypersexual tendencies as myself.
Ever since I’m on a SNRI antidepressants my libido increased out of proportion. Together with my eager curiousity it’s a daily minefield.
Trying to take a careful walk through the day. Only to explode (pun intended) multiple times at night or the early morning.
Yes, I’m an addict. An addict to the amazing feeling of an orgasm. I felt the shame to admit this to you, my unknown reader, but I can’t keep up with this charade.
My fantasies are soooo vanilla and full of sensual lust and admiring female beauty.
I don’t want to take my chance and force myself into my own pleasures.
I wanna give. I wanna make a woman feel like a goddess. Like a devine creature. I wanna point out her elegant beauty and wonderful feeling of style. I wanna show how perfect her boobs are shaped and what kind of relaxing feeling she gives me when seeing her naked. Unarmed sensuality and essential purity.
I wanna tell her how happy she makes me feel. Lets me forget about my worries and fears. Triggers me into be a better man. For her.
How I wanna feel up her body by touching her soft skin. While our lips are sealed in a soft kiss. My tongue licking her cheekbone and slowly go downwards to her throat snd her neck. Whisper in her ear how delicious she taste and soft she feels.
I wanna tell her how she makes me feel. Like all of a sudden a little fire starts burning inside of me… How my heart drops in beatings when feeling up her full boobs. Their soft but also firmness. How round and wellshaped they feel. How I want to suck her nipples as she caresses her fingers throughy halflong hair. Curling it around her finger. How I cup her boob while I lick her areolas before sucking on her nipples. That I want to push her boobs together and lick her cleavage and follow the track over her sternum over her throat and softly caress her chin with my nose before reaching back to her soft lips. And kiss her so good that it feels like time is going to stand still.
I want to tickle her thighs with my fingertips. Gently drawing little rounds and eights. Go upwards her innerthigh only to change course towards her hips when I get real close. Making her pussy ache for my touch.
That I can feel the energy it generates. Feel telepathically how her labia open up and she feels her pussy getting wet.
Oh how I wanna lay her on the bed. Open her legs and kiss her soft skin. Teasingly find my way towards the holiest of holy. Softly caressing her trimmed small bush on my cheeks and my face. My arms around her legs while I start licking her pussy.
Opening her pussylips with my fingers and eat her out. Penetrating her gently with my tongue. Before licking and sucking her clit.
I want to make her roll and close her eyes.. throw her head in her neck and open her mouth wide to let out her genuine moaning. From deep within. Right there where her life energy is.
I wanna give her a feeling that she will never forget. And wants to experience forever more.
Source: reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/ulcqw9/my_30m_birthday_wish