Denial to Acceptance to Obsession [MF] [24]

My first post here. I love reading posts on this sub, thought I will share as well.
Part 1 – Denial  

This was about 6 years back, I was in a new city with a new job and I was 24. The apartment I rented, I used to share with a friend – Anna. Anna and I worked for different firms but very briefly we had worked together on a project in the past and that’s how I knew her and ended up sharing the place with her when I moved to her city. She was in a serious relationship at the time (6 years and they were planning to get hitched). Her boyfriend (Ben) used to live in another city and they were in long distance for more than a few years. 

I got along really well really soon. Thanks to Anna, shifting to a new place for the first time in my life didn’t feel like a big deal. Ben used to come visit her once every couple of months. I was single at the time and casually dating. In about 6 months we became really good friends and were really close in the sense that we were sharing a large part of our non-work life together. To be honest, I always found her attractive but since I knew about her and Ben and how serious she was about him, I didn’t think much about that attraction other than occasional fantasies while in my bed alone. 

I wasn’t actively seeing anyone at the time other than occasional hookups from dating apps. In between I met a girl (Lets call her Jane) online and we hit it off well. Jane was a medical student and was on vacation at her grandparents’ place in the city. We saw each other for like a week, but it was a hell of a week. She used to come over daily, sometimes used to stay back. We were fucking almost all the time. I skipped a day of my work just to stay with her at home. Anna was around in the house, but we hardly spoke during that time. She used to tease me about it initially but slowly that also stopped. After that week I was really stressed at work. A lot had piled up from the previous week and I was at work almost 15 hrs every day for the next 10-12 days. 

Once that phase ended and life became close to normal, I felt there was a weird feeling between me and Anna. We were not hanging out as much, our chats decreased, she wasn’t her usual teasing bubbly self with me. We were watching TV one night when I finally asked her. She denied anything being wrong and said probably it’s because I was too busy in my life. I went up to her and put my arms around her and jokingly asked “Did my work make you jealous and was it Jane?”. She got really upset, so we had a little exchange. I was sort of surprised but soon she became normal. I said sorry for what I said jokingly and she said sorry for her reaction. We decided to leave that all aside and started chatting with some beers. Apparently she had a bad week at work the one before and also a small fight with Ben. I told her that I knew I was being selfish while Jane was there and we laughed when I said I could not have shown better control even if I wanted to. She told me that I did not need to explain and the amount of noise we made all night spoke for that. She laughed, I did too but I was a bit awkward. We had drunk a fair bit and I think we were both feeling tipsy. 

She then said “The reason I snapped a little while earlier was because it is true”

I said “About what”

“About me being jealous while Jane was here” She said.

I was smiling “Really?”

“Yes. It’s been tough to resist you anyway and then seeing you with her I don’t know why but I sort of hated her and maybe you as well a little briefly” “But it’s ok. I know I have no place to feel / say that”

“You are even harder to resist” I laughed “But knowing about you and Ben has helped me channel my temptations”

“Temptation?” “Channel!” she said and paused like a question mark.

“Yeah I mean I am a normal guy, obviously I find you hot” “Maybe I even dream a little” I laughed “But nothing more”

“What do you dream of?” She comes next

“Enough. We are not discussing that” I get up and grab another beer from the fridge.

“Sure If you dont wanna say. But I kinda like this thought that you dream about me” “I do too!”

My eyes turn up and I look at her in little shock + shyness + smile. The whole conversation has already had me hard. There was so much tension between us at the moment that my brain could not help but run away with idea of fucking here right there on that couch. At that moment, I wanted her. I really wanted her.

I went to her from behind the couch and put my arms on her shoulders. Slowly moving them on her neck and around, I leaned and rested my head on her. She put her hands over mine. I really felt something was gonna happen now. But I still did not have courage to make the first move without knowing what was going on in her head.

“Anna” “I can resist more” I whispered

“Me neither” “And I am trying so hard” She said “But I can’t.. I think.. I am not sure..”

In that moment anything could have happened, we were both vulnerable but we both somehow bottled our emotions and parted away. We decided we should sleep. While clearing the room we didn’t speak much. As I was walking back from the kitchen to go to my room, Anna was standing there at my door. She didn’t say a word. She grabbed and kissed me on the lips. A deep kiss. I hardly played any role in it; it was all her around my lips, sucking my soul out. By the time I got into senses to make any move with my lips she parted hers.

“I also want more… Likely really bad” “But I am sorry” She said and went to sleep.

Just as she was closing the door. She said “I am gonna dream about you…about what could have been” She smiled and then closed the door.

I had my fair share of dreams that night. I had one of the best orgasm that night outside sex.

PS: At the end of this I feel I am not the best at writing stories. But let me learn from this and I will share more on Part 2 and Part 3.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/u4b6v9/denial_to_acceptance_to_obsession_mf_24