How painal made me accept my masochist nature. [FM]

DISCLAIMER: this post is about to go into details surrounding painful sex. While it’s something I enjoy, I also want to make perfectly clear that you need to care for the wellbeing of your sexual partner(s). Please make sure to always get enthusiastic consent, and to play carefully and responsibly. Seriously hurting or traumatizing someone is not fun, and make sure to meet everyone’s aftercare needs!

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Despite being into kinky and sometimes violent sex, I never really saw myself as a masochist. The sting of a good spanking, being slapped in the face and being bruised after a session have always felt amazing to me – but for some reason my brain didn’t make the connection. I would think to myself “Sure, I enjoy being dominated, degraded and treated roughly, but I’m not a *masochist*…”

That has shifted slightly ever since I discovered the wonders of painful anal sex.

While the pleasure I derive from my G-spot being stimulated through anal penetration is amazing and on par with vaginal sex, the pain that is sometimes involved takes it to the next level for me. For anal to be painless there has to be preparation, warmup, stretching the asshole out until it’s ready for a cock. But I actually kind of prefer a more minimal warmup, maybe a little fingering or a small buttplug for a few minutes before I ask my partner to insert his cock into me…

The feeling of him sliding into my tight ass, my body tense and clenching, desperately trying to accommodate him… The pain of being stretched a little too much too quickly, having to catch my breath. It’s so delicious. And when he starts to move, I have to consciously try to relax to make it easier. Trying to fight the pain, I will usually tell him to stop moving every couple of minutes, to let me relax. Sometimes I’m close to tapping out (and I’m free to do so any time I want to), but I really love struggling to take his cock. Fuck… even typing this out I’m kind of embarrassed, but also not.

And my partner is so good at reading my body, he listens so closely, talking sweetly to me: “Relax your body baby, trust me… I will keep being gentle.” I trust him completely… so I surrender and let him keep moving slightly inside me, focusing on my breathing and trying to relax, letting the pain flow through me.

And the best thing of all… there always comes a point, the lovely tipping point, where I go from being in pain to feeling pleasure. Where my body relaxes completely, where he starts hitting that sweet spot inside me. Like pushing a button, my body goes from just taking it to enjoying it, craving more. My whimpers turn to moans. My face goes from a pained expression to widened eyes, a smile forming on my lips, amazed at the feeling.

When I reach that point, when that switch is flipped, my partner knows he can start to go rough. From then on, it’s fine for him to increase his pace until he’s slamming into me, making me scream in pure pleasure. I’m lucky enough to be able to cum from anal penetration alone, and that combined with my insatiable multi-orgasmic nature lets him fuck me for as long as he wants.

When he finally fills me up, the hot cum spilling inside me sometimes adds a little pain for some reason, but it’s also so satisfying. That means that the last few thrusts when he rides the wave of his orgasm, I sometimes need to fight against the pain again. But since I’m warmed up by that point, the pain isn’t as intense and it’s not hard for me to take it. The rhythm of pain – pleasure – topped off with a little bit of pain at the end is something I’ve become really addicted to.

A couple of times the timing has been so perfect that his last stroke was where I felt the need to tap out. Being fucked to the absolute maximum of my ability like that, leaves me almost high for well over an hour afterwards. It’s kind of like a runners high, but better.

The pain being such a crucial part of my enjoyment has made me start to accept that I’m some flavor of masochist. And being able to realize that is so freeing.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/t1663m/how_painal_made_me_accept_my_masochist_nature_fm