[F] Stuffing myself (Masturbation, Confession, Dildo)

Typically when I get off, I use my fingers. I usually rub my clit, and maybe finger myself a bit until I cum, before relaxing and cuddling with my body pillow. It’s easy, requires little preparation or thought, and feels wonderful.
However… Sometimes, when I’m especially longing for someone, I’ll get into moods where my regular routine isn’t enough. It’s a different kind of horny where I don’t just need to get off, I need to feel like I’m being fucked. Probably some primal desire or whatever.
Sometimes when I get like this, I’ll use my vibrator. It’s longer than my dildo, its quiet, it’s slimmer, and the vibrations are wonderful.
But other times, like tonight, I really just want to feel full. To feel the pain and pleasure that stretching my pussy comes with. Luckily, my dildo fills that spot pretty well.
I’m a virgin, so I’m not very well versed in being penetrated much. So my pussy is very tight, and it generally hurts when I fuck myself with something girthy. I also don’t get very wet on my own, so even with lube, I’m fairly tight. It’s less of a problem when I have a partner encouraging me, because I get way more aroused, but when I’m just solo, it’s a bit painful.
Not a problem though, because I can usually override the pain by rubbing my clit.
So, sometimes I have nights like tonight. I’m feeling very needy, and reeeeaaally craving some cock. I mean, I’m always craving it, I’m always craving the feeling of another person, pressing me up against the wall, or down on my mattress, or making me get on my knees to suck their cock. But it’s stronger than usual tonight.
So, I get my dildo out, and I start sucking it like it’s a lover that’s just asked me to make them feel good. I like to practice my gag reflex, so I can be good for any future partners, as well as the fact that I just love the idea of having someone’s cock in my mouth.
After I’ve properly covered the dildo in spit, using my tongue to lick all the areas I couldn’t get with it being in my mouth; I love up the dildo and just jerk it off for a minute or so. I really love feeling it in my hand, and imagining I’m pleasuring someone whose really enjoying themselves.
If you can’t tell, I really love the idea of making other people feel good.
And as much as I love the feeling of it in my hand, I don’t want the lube to dry so I eventually take my shorts off and slowly press it into my pussy.
I’m not sure if I mentioned this, but the dildo is fairly thick. It’s a regular-sized cock, but at about the middle, it gets fairly girthy. For someone whose never been fucked, this is somewhat of a draw back, because inserting it is painful. However, the reason why I’ve come to love this dildo so much, is because when I eventually get past that girthy part of the dick, it slims down more.

Every. Single. Time. I get that cock inside me, and I endure the pain to get to the slimmer part of the penis, it feels like heaven. It hits my G-spot just right, and sends literal shivers down my spine. The girth fills me up so well, and even though it’s still slightly painful, it feels soo fucking good. Every time I fully insert it inside me, and feel the balls press up against me, I always love to imagine someone calling me a “good girl”. I love the feeling love being good for someone, and this is one of the few times I really feel like one.
Even though I rarely fuck myself with this dildo, since the lack of touch from another person doesnt get me nearly aroused enough for that to be pleasurable, keeping it inside of me feels lovely. I love to cock warm the fuck out of this dildo while I rub my clit. It makes me feel so dirty to feel my pussy clenching around the girth that’s filling me up. I can feel the way I clench around it and I like to fantasize to myself how good that would feel to someone that has their cock inside of me. I would absolutely love to cock warm someone, to just work them to orgasming while using just the clenching of my pussy around their cock. I want to be a good girl and sit on someone’s dick while they whisper praises and orders to me.
It’s what I fantasize about while I lay in bed, utterly stuffed my the dildo in my pussy. It’s what I imagine while I edge myself a few times, feeling the way I clench around the dildo, before cumming on it and feeling the way that the deepest parts of my pussy clench around the head.

I lay there for a few minutes, riding out the remainder of my orgasm before slowly slipping the dildo out, enduring the girthier part of it again, before the head slips out and I can feel my own slick running down my ass. It’s odd, but it feels very nice, and makes me feel dirty, which I love.

Source: reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/sioz3m/f_stuffing_myself_masturbation_confession_dildo