Evening 👋🏽
The reason Im here is to chat to some buddies/folks online about the past relationship between me and my mum which by anyone’s standards to be fair was or is fairly toxic and has left some baggage.
About 4/5 years ago my mother was involved in an accident in Europe and & was under medical care for a number of months, I gave up work at the time because my dad couldn’t & done everything around the home from bills & housework to her care but I guess throughout that period I never before anything else addressed her personal care in terms of toilet duties, bathing which was performed all in good faith there’s no punchline to that.
The red flags in terms of like us becoming close, me not dealing with my emotions, no one facing the facts we was depressed and living in a bubble, my mums heavy reliance on me and replacing my dad after her recovery, I done what a lot of people would do and have done and bury my head in the sand at the time because it seems easier than dealing with it.
Our intimacy moving forward past her recovery caused blurred lines to the point where our relationship moved into the realm of unacceptable intimate behaviour throughout the home for a number years. I won’t go into get depth on this particular post sexually because I don’t particularly want to chuck vulgarity at the wall but the past is the past and life is definitely normal but I guess not opening up and not dealing with it hasn’t helped. It would be interesting to speak about my past with interested parties but at the same time over the years I’ve probably used the internet in good and bad days moving on from that period in my life so I can’t say it’s been all successful even on here when I’ve opened up.
It’s somewhat a confession, maybe a question and I’m not particularly asking for interaction but I suppose away from the day to day life reaching out in the certain threads to allow me to open has helped as weird as that sounds.
Source: reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/rn8ogf/mf_speakingopening_up_about_previous_sexualised
How do u feel about the relationship looking back at it now?