I have a similar confession, I was very young aged 11 – 14 raging hormones… I was brought up in family of girls… Ours is a joint family with many maternal side aunts and daughters.The men of the family had a successful business establishment running in another state owing to which their presence at the house were limited to once a month, my mom was working in clerical position in the same city with another establishment.
Other than my school and play time with my best buddies the rest of my time was confined with girls at home… My sisters were mostly my elders..
As a young child my fascination with female body started watching my aunt naked in shower which was such a common sight as they were too impervious to even think that a child might harbor any sort of sick intentions!! Seeing my sisters changing clothes or seeing them naked never had the same feeling in me… One ill intention triggered another and in this account an act which I’m frankly very shamed to admit.
During the sleeping time, it is a common practice to sleep in the same room next to each other not in bed but in the floor with a mat and pillows. So it happened one night I was sleeping next to my aunt, not a rarity at all many years it’s been the same practice!! But never had any sick intentions till then, but that night it was around 2 pm I just woke up to a slight very soft touch to my hand… I was drowsy half awake opened my eyes to see my aunt has left be bra unhooked with the view of both her breasts with very shaped purple nipples just staring at me right across my face… It was such a surreal moment but eventually something that I couldn’t get my thoughts out of!!! I slowly tried crawling close enough to get a better view and as this heinous act triggered me to act like a freak and have a touch of it. Pretending to be sleeping I slowly moved my hand to her nipple just to feel the most satisfying feeling I felt… My trembling hands did touch her and not to stop there I wanted to slide my hands as I could see her belly button and a very loose garment she was Skirt like garment she was wearing then… I did feel her belly button and slid my hand underneath her garment to feel her hairy snatch, that moment she realized something alien with a soft moan and just held my hand and forced it out!!! Now I’m caught guilt trapped and couldn’t come to terms with what happened there… She woke up and I tried to continue my pathetic act as a sleeping person which is the only thing I could do… She started putting on her clothes and moved away from me, the repercussions of such an act still a mark on our relationship even today!!! Whether things escalated within family is another topic but I wanted my confess just to make you feel better!!!
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