The best hate sex [FF]

Someone [requested](https://www.reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/qmv3q1/request_anyone_had_a_real_hatefuck_experience_mf/) a hate sex story and I am more than happy to indulge. I still get fucking pissed when I think about this… and turned on. I’m pretty sure my keyboard is never going to recover because I just angry-typed this out.

I grew up in a very conservative place. When I was in college in 2010 most people in the area did not understand LGBTQ folks, so I kept my bisexuality pretty under wraps.

I was dating a girl who was very much out and hated that I stayed in the closet. She had a really accepting family and did not understand my hesitation. She thought it was like ripping a bandaid off and told me I was being dramatic.

I should probably also note she was really volatile and kind of a difficult person to date. We did not have the healthiest relationship, but god damn it was she was great in bed.

So I don’t want to get too much into the specifics on this, but basically this bitch outed me in a very public way. I still get made when I think about it.

She actually does end up feeling bad and comes to my apartment later that evening to apologize. I don’t even want to let her in I’m so angry. I tell her we’re done and that I never want to see her again. She was super upset and apologetic until I told her to fuck off and then like a switch she went from sad to furious and suddenly matched my energy.

So weirdly enough, I don’t generally experience anger. When I’m upset I usually just get sad and start crying because anger is just not in my usual spectrum of emotion. When I started yelling though, it was like a valve went loose. I couldn’t stop. I screamed at her for being crazy. I screamed about my family. I screamed about my damn philosophy class (my professor was homophobic and yet always found a way to bring up lesbians).

Finally, after about twenty minutes I pick up my roommate’s vase and throw it against the wall. I mumble something about how I want to throw her against the wall and she just says “then fucking do it.”

So I did. I pin her against the wall and basically stick my tongue down her throat.

So every other time we had sex, she was definitely the more dominant person in bed (it was actually some of the best sex I’ve ever had because she was pretty creative with the things she made me do). I was so fucking pissed this time I wasn’t having it. However, being submissive was just not in her nature and she was possibly the most stubborn person I’ve ever met. What ensued was something I can only describe as a brawl.

I would pin her to the wall and then she would throw me back. She would pull my hair so I would bite her neck. Every time an article of clothing was removed, we would throw it at each others’ faces and then continue this weird fight/sex thing. We literally pushed each other to my room. I tried to bend her over my desk and instead she threw me onto the damn bed. It was so annoying but also so damn hot.

As a general rule I try to be sober and emotionally level when I engage in rough sex, but fuck I was so angry and wanted to fucking ruin her.

*I should probably note at this point in story that we had an established safeword neither of us chose to use*

I bent her over me and I fingered her so hard my hand started cramping. I pulled her hair while she did it and she called me a bitch. I got so mad I stopped and made her beg me to keep going before I would continue. I thought about not even letting her orgasm, but I really liked watching her come and wasn’t about to deprive myself of it because she was being a bitch. Instead I flipped her over and made her look at me while she climaxed which was actually pretty satisfying. I got a little less angry after that, but apparently she was still going.

She immediately pushed me back and put her head between my legs. I wasn’t exactly dirty talking so much as telling her I was still angry while simultaneously begging her not to stop. She really liked toying with me and I was a little scared she might withhold out of spite. On the contrary she made me come so hard I started crying and then she kept going with her fingers until I came again.

We actually made up after that and kind of laughed at ourselves. We broke up shortly after because we just weren’t really compatible on any level but this one, but she’s actually the girl from [this story](https://www.reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/p3emji/my_exgirlfriend_made_me_get_my_boyfriend_off_mff/), so it’s safe to say there were no hard feelings.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/qnih7m/the_best_hate_sex_ff