The first time I (19F at the time) discovered the slut in me [FM]

When I was 19 I studied for a couple of months in NYC. I was pretty sexually inexperienced back then, even tho I had sex before, I still felt like a shy virgin who had no idea of what the fuck she’s doing and suddenly, on the first day, I met Joakim. I was studying in an international school. Joakim was 22, he was this gorgeous Norwegian guy who seemed way out of my league. We flirted a bit that very first day as we walked around Manhattan but this other girl was all over him and I got super intimidated. I ended up leaving early because I couldn’t deal with the situation.

Before meeting Joakim I hadn’t felt sexual in a very long time, but I found myself turned on in such an intense way, as if I just discovered I had a clit. I felt this deep shame of wanting something that seemed unattainable yet necessary to keep living. I was so wet when I ran into him at classes. I’d rub my pussy late at night biting my lips so hard they once bled. I just didn’t want to wake up my roommates, not that I can be sure I accomplished that. My point is that two weeks went by like that. Two weeks of us being in the same classes, me seeing him talking to other girls and boiling with jealousy, furious masturbation and just dreaming about being his fucktoy.

Around the end of that second week, someone in my dorm building (which was very specifically for all of us under 21) tried to cook something in a microwave at 3am and to make a long story short, the firemen ended up coming and all of the students evacuated. Somehow among all that mess I ran into Joakim. He lived in a suite in the dorm next door, reserved for those of American legal drinking age. While I shared a room with 4 girls, he was all on his own. We talked a bit and when we finally got the clear to go back to our rooms, I was a wet mess. Since he approached me and were all on our pjs I couldn’t help but notice how even his flaccid cock showed through his very thin pants. Same way he didn’t seem able to take his eyes off my nipples, that were very prominent in the T shirt I put on to escape. So, I decided this was my only chance to be brave. Fuck it, if not now when, right? So I started pretending I couldn’t find my roommates (partly true) and asked him if I could stay with him. He said sure. Since everyone evacuated it was easy to pretend I’d forgotten my ID and the tired and annoyed guards just let me into his building without even looking at me.

I could feel myself so turned on I was literally shaking, my pussy so insanely drenched it was now getting my asshole wet. It’s the only time I’ve ever felt something that damn intense. Like I would collapse if he touched me. He opened the door the door and let me in first. I stood by near him in a way that as soon as he closed the door and turned around, he was face to face to me. He said hi in a very sexy way, and I told him I needed help with something. I swear that night I would’ve done whatever it took to get into his pants and some porn spirit took my body. I took his hand and took under my shirt, inside my panties. He stuck his fingers inside me and after a sigh, commented on how wet I was before kissing me intensely. He pulled me closer to him and I felt his boner pressing against my stomach.

I don’t know what the size was, but it definitely was the biggest most perfect cock I had till that moment, and who knows, maybe to this day, just frozen in my memory in all its gloriousness. He took his fingers off my pussy and made me suck them. I did it gladly. By then the taste of my pussy was so intertwined with how much I masturbated thinking about him that licking it off him, in actual flesh and blood, drove me crazy. I’m sure I didn’t even look like a horny person, I must’ve looked like a starving cannibal that was going to eat him alive. His eyes reflected that at me. He was crazy about me in that moment.

I dropped on my knees and started blowing him hungrily. He didn’t even let me doing long enough before pulling my hair and telling me to slow down or else he’d cum. He grabbed me and tossed me to his bed. He took my panties off and for the first time in my life, he ate my pussy. I came almost instantly all over his pretty face, trying to avoid it so hard, feeling kinda embarrassed even. He spat on my mouth before entering me. I didn’t gave a fuck about anything in that moment, much less condoms.

I came so fast. I just couldn’t handle it anymore. It was like a dream come true. I was moaning and screaming and thinking things I wanted to say but was too shy to. I licked his skin, fascinated at how soft he was, yet how real and heavy he felt on top of me. He said he was going to cum inside me, and all I did was wrapped my legs around him and bite my lips. He smiled and with each trust he shot ropes of cum deep inside me. He was moaning in such a sexy way, looking at me in a way that I still can’t understand but completely melted me. I still blush just remembering it.

We never put labels on whatever it was we had, as if this relationship was a beautiful deer we stumbled upon and we were scared that speaking about it was going to make it run away and disappear. In the end, that’s kinda what happened. But before that unsatisfying ending to the closest I’ve ever come to real love, we just had so much fun. Joakim would sit next to me in classes and throw his arm around me like it was nothing, for everyone to see. I just felt truly his, so comfortable around him. But the best thing, of course, is that we’d fuck at any chance we got.

Stairs, stalls, parking lots, showers and whatever corner seemed secluded enough, just lost in lustful revelry for the month and a half we spend together having sex literally every day. We even had a threesome with a friend of his, but that’s a different story. I felt so alive, and I came back from that trip completely changed. The confidence I got out of him was truly transformative, and it also made me feel super confident sexually. That was the beginning of so many things in my life, and for a long time I just indulged my curiosity and need to explore sex. Some truly good times in retrospect.

Anyway, this has lasted enough. Goodbye.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/owwflo/the_first_time_i_19f_at_the_time_discovered_the