[F] [masturbation] I just had a mind-blowing orgasm while thinking about a certain YouTuber

Hello everyone. I don’t know how many people will actually find this sexy as opposed to just kind of weird, but I don’t care. I need to share this with someone and this sub is pretty much my only choice at the moment. I’m not going to reveal whom the fantasy was exactly about because I think that’s a bit creepy, but let’s just say that he’s a decently popular YouTuber and Reddit seems to like him. I won’t acknowledge any attempted guesses in the comments.

Anyway, it’s a boring wednesday evening and I’m feeling kind of horny as I haven’t jerked off in a couple of days. Recently broke up with ex so I’m not up for random hookups quite yet, but I still have needs, dammit. So I lie in bed and grab my trusty cheapo red vibrator and go to town. I’m not a huge fan of porn, I prefer to fantasise. So I’m going through potential fantasies: hot university professor? I’ve done it to him so many times that I’m out of ideas. Cute female acquaintance who says my name in a sexy way? Don’t know her that well, not enough material. Hot as fuck YouTuber I have a crush on? Bingo.

I’ve fantasised about him several times before, but never this clearly and intensely. I’m honestly kind of embarrassed about it. I watch his videos because they’re funny, sure, but also because I wish he’d fuck the everloving shit out of me. It’s never going to happen, obviously, but I can’t help indulging the idea. He makes crude jokes pretty often and I wonder if he’s aware that every time her references his dick, or jerking off, or pretty much anything of that nature (and there are a lot of jokes of that particular nature), there’s at least one girl (me) somewhere out there getting wet and pausing the video and repeatedly rewatching that particular moment to savour it for her spank bank. I get it. He has a primarily male audience. He probably thinks it’s relatable and hilarious to reference using lotion while jerking off. But it sure as hell doesn’t make me laugh. It makes me stop whatever I’m doing so that I can finger myself to some dude on YouTube.

Anyway, for whatever reason this time I just let my mind wander freely. I imagined we met at some kind of small party. I imagined that he was coked up to his eyes, justifying why he’d soon turn into an animal. We end up alone and talk about things. I look up at him (I am very petite, he’s rather tall) and ask him bashfully whether I can kiss him. He looks at me for a moment and says no, but I can let him fuck me. He bends me over a couch and I let him do exactly what he wants. He tells me the raunchiest imaginable shit and I love it. He makes me tell him how much I love it. He makes me say his name repeatedly. And by the end he tells me how much he loves fucking me, I’m the hottest girl he’s had in a while, and finally kisses me as a reward.

But now we’re already in the realm of fiction. This obviously never happened. What did happen, though, was that by the time I came I was moaning like I hadn’t in a while. I don’t know how I managed it, but I was completely immersed in the fantasy, like it was happening right before my eyes. Immediately after the orgasm I laughed in disbelief and felt simultaneously extremely proud and kind of ashamed. Either way though, I knew I had to share it with someone, and who better than a bunch of strangers on a NSFW subreddit?

Oh, and that reminds me, I think he has a new video out. Who knows, maybe it’s time for round 2!

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/62agbb/f_masturbation_i_just_had_a_mindblowing_orgasm