I (24) cheated on my SO with a 38 year old guy from Fetlife [FM]

We have been talking, sending photos on Snapchat. We were both into kink and DD/lg. He was older, blonde hair, had facial hair, a few wrinkles, strong Australian accent, mildly obese- had a gut, he was a little dishevelled, was wearing a white oversized singlet, rough around the edges. Not the kind of guy I was hoping for, maybe I was desperate.
He told me he was a tafe teacher, had 3 kids and had a vasectomy.
I told him to bring me a gift, a stuffed animal or stickers or something cute but he didn’t. I thought he would buy me a coffee, he didn’t.

We met up a service station, he was bringing a caravan for a road trip. I also had somewhere to go that day and it was halfway. He was 45minutes late because caravan problems but I waited. I felt strange walking into the service station with the sluttiest outfit, a cropped black top, pink push up bra, black thong, Tiffany necklace and a plaid mini skirt so short if I moved a bit it would expose my bum- he told me to wear heels but I was at a service station- it was busy, loud and there were families eating McDonald’s and the type of place people would wear pyjamas not heels, I was already overdressed. I wore white sneakers. i did my makeup, had on perfume, shaved, had Tom Ford shimmering oil on-I felt like an expensive hooker though. I had sunglasses on and listened to my earphones, I saw eyes staring at me. I sat for 45mins.

He told me to walk to his caravan. I walked up the road, nervously. I looked at him and waited for him to speak. I knew something “bad” was going to happen. He took my sunglasses off, I got in and he immediately starts touching me and hugging me from behind, he kisses me, told me to lay in the bed. He closes the windows. We kiss more. He pulls my top down and sucks on my nipples for a little bit. He pulls up my skirt, takes off my panties and licks my pussy, eats me out, fingers me. He always asked if that’s ok. I say Yes. He asks for clarification. He told me I could stop at any time.
He asks me what I want to do now. I said I want to touch your cock. I stroke it a little, “you’re really enjoying that aren’t you” he says, his dick was small, it was circumcised.
He asks me if I wanted to suck it.. I didn’t. I was still kind of grossed out.
“It’s ok. You don’t have to do anything you don’t feel comfortable with.”
He asks me what I wanted to do now or what I wanted.
I said I honestly don’t know.
I said I wanted a hug.
We hugged. I wrapped my hands around his huge belly. It was hot (temperature wise) because there was no air flow in the caravan. He was kinda sweaty and smelt heavily of cigarettes. He kissed me more, with tongue.
I could barely look him in his eyes, I was awkward, a little grossed out, a little taken astray, but wet now that he’s eaten my pussy and groped me. I wanted to please daddy.

He asked if he could do something to tease my pussy a little bit, he positioned himself on top of me, he rubbed his cock on my clit and asked me if he could slide it in. I said yes. Fuck it, I’m already here. He said I was tight and began fucking me missionary style. I was on my back, moaning, I couldn’t look him in the eye longer than a second. I didn’t touch him or hold his arms or wrap my hands or legs around his back. My clothes were on the entire time, minus the panties with my skirt pulled up.
He said he had a vasectomy. “Do you want my cum” I said yes. I wanted to be cream pied.
He exploded in me. We stayed in that position for a little longer. I said I have to go. He handed me my thong panties back, and says “you haven’t sat on my lap yet”. I sit on his lap. I teased him about him being so sweaty, he laughed. He said “I’m not just daddy *points at the bed* in there, I’m daddy in here and I’m here *he touches my heart and my head*, do you like when I ask you about your day? You can tell me anything. I care about my baby girl.”

We walked holding hands across the street. He kisses me one last time. I felt really awkward. A little grossed out. A bit guilty but I know I got myself into this situation and have to own it. A bit dirty, used. I went to the public toilet to clean myself up, then I drove and went to my friends party.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/mfawiy/i_24_cheated_on_my_so_with_a_38_year_old_guy_from