[MF] A free use girl and a fuckboy power trip

this is about to be LONG as a fuck, and probably make a lot of the dudes in this sub hate me by the time yall finish reading but idgaf so here goes

yall are so into this race play on this sub but we about to test the limits i think 

Imma seperate this into chapters so yall can skip around

**1** about me, the setting, the circumstance, and my personal perspective (relevant but controversial and kinda boring)

**2** my general hoetry and the nature of the power trip

**3** the girl this particular story is about, from matching with her to fucking her the first time

**4** her career as my personal slut and where things ended

#1 A BLACK COMMUNIST ON A RACIST CAMPUS

This was a couple years ago when i was a college freshman and ages 18-19. I am black and mexican, so i am lightskinned but clearly black, but most people really confidently guess that im half white (irritating). Im 6 feet, but pretty skinny. I wear thick rimmed circular glasses. I had long curly hair that people were jealous of. they were still loose but turning to freeform dreads. I wasn’t always that cute but I had a lot of confidence since high school because I had a big dick and had no problem talking to girls (even if i wasnt getting laid like that). I look deadass like Kukun from devilman crybaby, but im darker (slightly), my hair is black, and im just more clearly african american, i guess. when I had dreads and my chin beard people said I looked like “art hoe j cole” 

So at my university in nowhere, Indiana (im from chicago) the student populace was about 92% white students, which is pretty typical i imagine but at my particular school incidents of racist bullying, racist frats, exposures of racist staff and administrators, hate crimes, white campus PD officers shooting innocent black students (yes, really, a family was given a settlement and the cop was fired), exposures of inequal opportunities being given to students of color, and a legitimate list of extremely concerning incidents had cultural tensions on campus very palpably tense, all the time. sounds irrelevant but it was fuckin crazy yall!

The school was putting out corporatey approved slogans about diversity meant to sweep everything under the rug that NOBODY liked and all it did was invite the lowkey racists on campus to expose themselves on social media ranting about it. I’m not from indiana and all I knew about you people was mike pence and pete buttigieg and my first few weeks on campus were not a good look for yall in my opinion. it seemed it had been this way for years. The charlottesville neonazi rally happened right before the school year started, and honestly, the entire setting+that shit show really brought the entire black student population together in a really inspiring and wholesome way. that part was cool.

As a black student who took out enormous loans for this place, finding all this out in the first two weeks weighed very heavily on my mind. NOT sexy.

    So me personally, especially with it all in the front of my mind, I definitely noticed the racism. What I hated the most was the fake, ignorant, performative wokeness from the majority of staff and girls on campus. It fucked me all the way up lemme tell yallll. I am very sensitive to all the ways the ENDLESS torrent of negative depictions of black people, black culture, and black communities gets fed into people’s brains and how they don’t even know how to act whenever they meet one. it shows when youre that fucking sheltered and ignorant and it just doesn’t get passed me. **I am a revolutionary black communist.** i dont give a fuck what you think about that. i do not care if you dont agree but you need to understand that I was way outta place on this campus and that it WAS NOT ME who was impressed with these Caucasian girls trying to flex how not racist they are when you can tell they really never gave a fuck before trump took office. Even if youre a conservative, even if youre a RACIST, You know these college liberal hoes that im talkin about. They’re annoying. They are fake. They are ignorant. They are exhausting. They fucking suck. They all wanted to touch my hair (don’t)

#2 MY SHAMEFUL ADDICTION TO DISINGENUOUS WHITE WOMEN

so why did i have to be so addicted to wrapping these white girls around my finger, fucking them raw, and then ghosting them.

I only had black friends, black relationships, only black clubs, black parties, black student events, but once you opened tinder it was a bunch of white girls. I hated most of them. A lot of them looked the same to me and as far as i cared they were all named emily. All they saw in me was light skin, my height, and my N word pass and so they made it that fucking easy for me. and I hated them for it. They would irritate the fuck outta me telling me how racist their friends/family/boyfriend/every single person they associate with is and how they werent and i should care.  (but they never tell me about how they question or correct any of them, hmmm) They thought they were scoring points with me. **They fetishized me and desperately wanted me to validate them with my association.**  And this is just because of my brown skin i never even discussed my radical politics with a single one of them. 

 I was so happy to flirt back with a girl like that, make her think i gave a fuck and that she was going to get that petty, racist validation she’s looking for from me. her ego would be so inflated thinking i was actually smitten by her petty corporate-liberal morality and her talking points from the internet and in the end id leave her so confused why i only hit her up to dump a load in her mouth before kicking her out. The validation never comes we only meet up to fuck and it never goes past that. I never gave my number out, no following on instagram or twitter (snapchat was fine), and I NEVER went out in public with them or let them take pictures with me. White women were just holes to me and i hated my addiction to it. **but this made the power trip so hot for me.** what was even hotter is that I fucked 10 different white girls at this university (out of 16 total) and not a single one of them made me wear a condom ( i fuckin know but i got tested regularly so RELAXXXX).

**They wanted it raw every time. the total submission makes me wild.** And I would hardly have to do anything. I would just keep up the bare minimum of a conversation, tell them to come to my room, bust my nut in her mouth, and kick her out. A lot of them were struck that a black boy would even bother to talk to them on this campus. A lot of them i bet were really hoping, or very arrogantly convinced i would eventually fall for them (HA!) or hang out with them in public (HAHA!) or even text them the next day (HAAAAAAAAAAA!) and I never did, and I hope the good dick made it sting harder. I just didn’t care. Rolling my eyes when when they mention the words “black dick” or “bbc” while we were fucking, which happened more than once, and only added to how much i thought they were all the same.

A white girl would let me break her heart with my continued apathy but after i ghost them for two weeks i get horny again and hit them back up came right back to let me raw them again, for honestly no good reason. In those moments they realize they can either be around to fuck me or get nothing at all from me. A majority of them made the more degrading choice to my delight. It was a serious power trip i lowkey hate myself for it tho. **I knew i could always just choose to not associate, not reserve all of my subconscious misogyny for them, and not constantly take advantage of their racist infatuation with me. But i was a horny lil boy and i really, really wanted to take advantage of these ignorant white hoes.**

she telling me her boyfriend is racist? give her the best dick of her life and then go ghost and remind her that she could never deserve me outside the bedroom, and barely deserves me inside. Go back to your racist man, bitch, yall deserve EACH OTHER. That’s basically how i felt. A lot of the pussy was pretty average too i was hardly ever satisfied with myself.

#3 I MET THE GIRL THIS STORY IS ABOUT

So the newest white girl at the time, well call her lexi, was a tinder match from weeks ago that i never messaged. She ended up being pretty cute in person but i did not think so from he tinder pics at first, i wondered why we matched at all. lexi in person was about 5’5, dirty blonde, skinny, had hips only a little wider than her waist but her ass had a ton of pop when you saw her in profile she had really nice c cups that filled up my hands but you just couldnt tell from her Odd Future hoodies. She had gaged ears, a brow piercing, a pretty face and very very very tired eyes. she wore light makeup and looked like she only dressed comfortably. She is a very cute girl but i just could not tell from her profile.

She was so much more unique and individualistic looking than all the other country ass white girls around me, which i definitely appreciated but people would disagree with me on that. But with all my other exploits drying up (some girls wont actually let you fuck again after you ghosted them the first time, who knew?) my horny ass decided to message her. **The conversation escalated pathetically fast as it usually did and too long she was telling me how sex while high is her favorite and how she likes when men cum in her mouth. hot. ** maybe i was going to. i was still only looking at her pics so i was on the fence. I wasn’t sure if we were gonna link. I wanted to see her body but she didnt seem into it yet but told me she wanted to smoke me out the next day. to a broke potheaded fuckboy like me, that was an automatic yes, you can get the dick for smoking me out imma manslut like that. 

so the next day after class im in her car and we drive to an old cemetery (edgy white girl shit fr lmaooo) and lexi is playing weird white people music (ik its not weird but rock is just not for me) mixed with hip hop that i actually liked and some hip hop i didnt like at all. but it sounded better with the weed and as we were talking things honestly became pretty heavy as she discussed her life challenges with me. I felt bad for her, and even tho i didnt reveal anything about myself i respectfully conveyed to her that i understood her pain (and i did, honestly.) I could tell she was really going thru it and mostly just needed company and a space to vent. Normally i hate to be in that position when i only came to fuck the shit out of her but i was seriously engaged with the conversation, and it was nice not being such an american psycho in the presence of a white woman i was looking to use. It felt realer than i let myself experience, i must admit. Looking back she probably wanted me to throat fuck her right then and there but I honestly didn’t feel right to do that at that very moment and let her take me back when the blunt ran out. **I went to bed and woke up to the message “when can i see you again? :)”**

goddammit.

i ignored it like the unbelievable asshole i used to be and went to class. when I got out of my last class there was another snapchat message that said “you really left me on read?” yeah. i did. and was doing it again. later that night she sent the first image snap. I honestly had never been pursued this hard by anyone being a cis straight man and all, and i lowkey had been thinking about her while horny so i opened it immediately and saw her on her knees in a big sweater that had her nipples poking thru, the way it draped over her body i couldnt see if she was wearing any panties but she definitely wasnt wearing any shorts. the caption read “listen bro i just wanna smoke you out”. I did not for a second think thats all she wanted but she had my attention and **even tho I just disrespected her all day today i still was going to fuck tomorrow.**

were at the cemetery again, in the daytime afternoon, playing tyler the creator (flower boy was THE shit at this point in time), high as fuck and were discussing life from our mutual doomer perspective. the conversation is honestly still really heavy but im also horny this time.  **She’s trailing off all of her sentences because she wants me to initiate.** I can tell she fucks. i wonder if she’s going to let me raw her. i already know i can cum in her mouth if i want to. I do want to. I wonder what her pussy tastes like. so im complimenting her music taste as i start running my hand along her jeans and i swear i could feel her whole body whimper almost. i tell her my room is free and she deadass starts speeding back to campus as a rub her thigh, im not trying to push her too much too fast but on a long empty road she takes both hands off the wheel to unbutton her jeans and pull them down enough for me to rub her pussy thru her panties. i cant believe what the fuck im seeing and im extremely frightened and impressed at her ability to do this while were both this fucking high. shes soaked. i start rubbing her clit thru her panties and my fingers are wet to the touch from doing it. she puts her seat back and moans softly, but intensely. as we pull into main campus and eventualy back to my dorm, she zips back up and we basically run to my room on the second floor. 

we get inside, she compliments my wall art, room perfume, and general cleanliness (fuckboy preperations) and throws herself on my bed and starts hitting an oil pen (no idea she had one) while she hits it i take off her panties and start licking her clit as her whole body tenses up and she yells out in pleasure. I give her really long licks, flat tongue, full strokes, and shes bucking with every lick from the jump. **The way her entire body tensed up and somehow conveyed an intense sense of relief she was experiencing.** My mind was on autopilot eating her out im just listening to her and feeling her body respond to what im doing. I have no idea how much time has passed but she tells me shes cumming i keep going as she screams and bucks harder. she settles down but i keep licking her, sucking her clit, and swirling my tongue as i slide two fingers in and start curling my fingers against her g spot when i pull them out, straightening them when i push them back in, all in rhythm with the way i was licking her clit. she starts bucking again and grabbing my hair as i feel her pussy tighten on me, i keep going and going and i cant even tell when she stopped cumming, she just kept bucking and kept squeezing her walls. I keep going and shes still bucking, squeezing, and moaning like shes cumming. She’s already getting obsessed. 

I still had my joggers on and my dick was throbbing and dripping precum. She had me rock hard and we both had been waiting for this all day. **i was probably kidding myself but i was hoping this troubled girl didn’t fall in love with me for doing this.** I was less interested in breaking her her heart she may have been the only one who i ever had a real conversation with. even if she was going to get attached I was still going to fuck the shit out of this hoe and was already thinking of what she might say if i nutted in her pussy without asking. i slow down with my tongue and let her come to her senses. she looks at me and spreads her legs apart as i wipe her pussy off my face with my hand, and let her suck my fingers as i take off my joggers and shirt and pull my dick out. shes taking off her hoodie and shes not wearing a bra underneath (hot.). Im a lil shocked at how big her boobs are and i immediately start sucking them, she claws my back asks me if i had a condom. I lowkey did somewhere in here but i had no idea where so i separate from her by holding myself up in missionary position and told her no, and if we should get one from downstairs. she smiles, rolls her her eyes, shakes her head, spreads her legs wider for me and says **”welp. fuck me raw”** with a shrug. Hot.

before she can finish biting her lip im already inside her and after 5 strokes i felt her pussy tighten again. was she cumming? (she was). i start fucking her deep and im highkey afraid of how good her pussy is. she’s tight as fuck, been wet and aching for hours at this point, and cumming every few minutes because she was rubbing her clit. she’s so fucking tight and she wanted this so bad. we only fucked for like 10 minutes tops. Her pussy was incredible honestly. She took my hand and put it around her throat and told me to squeeze hard. I did and i swear it made her pussy even tighter. Im getting close and im thinking of asking her if shes on the pill (she wasnt) but i decided against and right before i came i pulled out and shot like 7 ropes on her pussy, but every single one stretched up to her tits and one got her chin. she looked turned on at how i treated her like my cum rag and she was impressed at how much i gave her. **she stroked my dick with her hand to milk me and pulled me to her to lick the tip clean.** she kept rubbing her clit for a few more crucial seconds to cum another time.

 she wiped the cum off her chin and ate it. she looked me in the eyes and savored it. she started wiping as much cum as she could off her stomach and eating it. **as i got her a towel, she told me i need to make her swallow it next time. i hated that she insinuated i would be answering her texts for a next time. i loved that she said i need to MAKE her swallow it. there was probably going to be a next time.**

#4 HER TIME AS MY PERSONAL CUM DUMPSTER

two days later we smoked again and i ate her pussy and she came just as hard and as she took her turn sucking my dick i decided to just cum in her mouth without telling her. she took it right in her mouth, and i can tell she was enjoying how much i was cumming, just like the last time. I took her by surprise and she liked the degradation. she kept me in her mouth for a nice long time playing with my cum with her tongue and swirled it over my dick before she sat up and looked me in the eyes as she swallowed it all, an audible gulp. she told me how much i cum (which i took as a thank you) and left. no complaints.

a little while after that **i fucked her doggy in her car and came in her panties while they were around her knees. she still wore them after like nothing happened. she liked it.** we went back to smoking and she sucked me off while wearing her ruined panties. I, had been letting her do her thing but as i got closer i forced her head down and i made her choke for her very first throat pie. she liked that too. 

we started fucking regularly. 

**what i liked most about lexi is that she liked me A LOT but knew i wasnt going to do anything besides let her vent to me, use whichever hole or holes i wanted, and kick her out. and she liked it.**  she always smoked me out so i could do just that. **She was desperate to swallow my cum.** She texted me all the time how much she liked the taste and how shes my cumslut. after a while i stopped bothering with new white hoes as they were getting too tiresome to flirt with, and honestly none of them wanted to be my personal whore the way lexi did. i fucked her however i wanted. I smacked her ass till it nearly bled, i pulled and dragged her by the hair while we fucked and when i fucked her mouth. she had me slap her across the face before she came, i spit on her pussy, in her mouth, choked the FUCK out of her till she nearly passed out, and thats only if i wanted to fuck her at all. Sometimes i would tell her we were going to fuck but i would end up finishing in her mouth and she was satisfied. when she was on her period shed still smoke me out and let me fuck her throat until she could barely swallow my cum from the soreness. When I would use her mouth she would masturbate while she swirled my cum around on her tongue and would swallow after shed cum while milking me. **she never forgot to milk me any more than she forgot to swallow.**

I’d only really message her to use her and she never turned me down and never complained. A good slut. **She would show up to my door, wed get high and shed get naked and present herself to me.** I never needed permission to touch her body, to enter a hole, to be rough with her, nothing. She was happy to take it from me however i wanted to give it. I had been fucking her very regularly, but not exclusively, much to her disdain but she eventually got over it because she knew she was my favorite whore to use. She told me nobody else gets to fuck her raw. Nobody else gets sucked off just for the sake of it like me. nobody else gets smoked out. She was mine completely and i only used her holes. 

she eventually stopped venting to me for the most part as her life started to improve, which was good, honestly. i was happy for her. But was even happier that she was still going to come service my dick at the snap of my fingers. I made her swallow so much of my cum. on days i had no class i would sometimes make her suck me off twice a day, between her classes. **She swallowed every time and it got to the point where if i pulled out without any words shed immediately move to take it gently into her mouth to swirl her tongue and play with my balls as i cum into her mouth** (she knew i liked her to taste it but sometimes i throatpied her while she choked instead). she did whatever i wanted. whenever i wanted. my free use whore. 

**I almost forgot how much disturbing racial infatuation was involved but never completely.** I hope she knew i was mostly too cool for her in daylight hours. I think she knew that and still was ecstatic that i still let her be my favorite place to dump my cum. 

she was sending me nudes on the regular too, which i liked. and one day she sent a photo with her lips painted red (she was cute with it) and asked me if her mouth was my favorite place to cum. i replied “only cuz i cant cum in your pussy”. she wanted to know more. i went on to explain that nutting in a girl is the best way to finish because her pussy was incredible and that pulling out and switching holes last second is kinda disorienting. But mostly i loved the domination of filling her holes, especially without asking. i loved the selfishness of it. Since i was fucking these hoes raw it was honestly my worst nightmare to get one of them pregnant (which is partly why i hate myself so much for it). After telling her all this i honestly didnt know how she felt about that. I think she was more of a swallower. She obviously did not want to get pregnant. It was just me thinking out loud anyway i didnt think anything would come of it. 

**the NEXT day she send me a picture of her holding some kind of medicine at the pharmacy. “mood stabilizers?” i asked. “no, you asshole. its the pill.”**

godDAAMMIT. she did that that fast for me? Was she practical or just that obsessed? Didn’t matter because if she was determined to be my ideal fleshlight then i was gonna let her. 

she said that wouldnt be safe to finish in her for a month because thats how long it takes to kick in, so i just pulled out and came in her mouth like i had been until the day before id be able to start cumming in her. we had been hitting her pen in my room and i was fucking her doggy and she was cumming just from the dick more than she usually did. we had the whole night so i licked her pussy for like an hour while we watched some dumbass horror movie and we had been fucking for like 45 minutes straight. i usually cant last this long inside her because im almost always too into it and too eager to make her swallow. she collapsed and i was fucking her while she proned and had her hips and ass arched out and i was about to have a full body orgasm. i fucked her deeper and deeper the longer i stayed on the edge the bigger the orgasm was about to be. i was already too close to have her flip over and cum in her mouth and upon realizing that **i lost all self control and as the first big spurt of cum shot into her she gasped and tightened her walls and thats when i barely got out the words “im cumming in you”** and she used her pussy to milk every drop out of me. Not pulling out and dumping my load directly into  her was surreal.

**That’s two holes i own now.** 

probably the best sex i ever had in my life at that point in time. It was one day before the pill would kick in and we both spent our plan B money on dumb shit so we rolled the dice on that one and when she got her period a week later we were massively relieved, and it had also been enough time to start cumming in her regularly. I basically switched from her mouth to her pussy as my favorite cum dump. I would make her leave leaking these enormous creampies instead of swallowing me. She came almost every single time i came inside her. like a physiological response. A good slut I could only dream of having this type of power over someone. I leveraged it in every way i could to make sure she would faithfully satisfy every single sexual urge and whim. I made her ditch her friends for it, something i never did in return, just to suck me off between classes. she already was my cum dump but she was working full time for me after that. **i got attached to her and her holes and rewarded her for it.** 

i really could go on because she was my personal cumdump for another two semesters before i had to leave university for a multitude of reasons. by that point in time i had cucked her white boyfriend (who had never fucked her raw or cum inside her, sorry man, you probably didn’t deserve that) and fucked her mouth in publc a few times. had her leaking my cum for during classes she was late for, trained her throat for throatpies on the regular, and she still paid for all the weed we smoked, and i never failed to make her cum every time i tried. it hardly required any effort, her body just came when i stimulated it. it was bond of sexual submission that neither of us could really explain. She probably never submitted to anyone the way she did for me. probably never is going to. **she was her own woman in her own life, very confident, very smart, very in control of things, but she very happily to accept the fact that her place in the bed room was as my cum whore. I used her holes for a year in total.** 

by this point in time we had learned so much about each other that even tho i havent spoken to her in years we left off as really close friends, i respect her, she respects me, weve both seen each other at our best and worst, and have shared a ton of extremely dark secrets with one another and i will always regard her a good friend and incredible sexual companion.

dms are open for questions/comments/concerns/threats/political discourse

**She has a boyfriend these days but she still hits me up to chit chat every so often and im certain its because she misses the sex as much as i do.**

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