Somethings are changed due to concealing those involved and me forgetting every detail…
2:30 am. Suburban USA I am in my early 20s and I am running around screaming in the middle of the night thinking that the FBI is following me and the the internet is “talking to me”. Although its a mix of pure euphoria and terror, in reality its my first episode of mania, and in about 12 hours from now I will diagnosed with manic depressive illness and my life will never be the same….
I grew up in suburbia and when I was in my teens to early 20s I had handful of sexual encounters with several different woman. I went to college but dropped out due to depression before I had any chance live the college life. I started smoking marijuana heavy and fell into a deeper depression over the following year or so…
One spring, all of sudden, the world all made sense. I was thinking clearly and everything was clicking… I started to spiral upwards into a manic episode where I would embarrass myself publicly and land myself in the hospital. There they would give me massive amounts of drugs and I would gain 70 pounds in a few months…
During my 20s , because of the drugs I was on and being overweight , I never even thought about getting laid. Something changed later in the 20s though. I found a new doctor and was put on new medication. My libido suddenly awakened and I lost a ton of weight. I also had the courage to ask law enforcement to remove a negative news article online, that in my mind would destroy any chance of getting laid once someone googled me…
So I was feeling great. Lost weight. My sex drive normalized. I started to charity work that introduced me to people from all over… And that’s when I met Rebecca…
She was from Norway. 5’8″ half Arabic and half Norwegian. Beautiful tan skin and killer eyes… She was also shy, and reserved but seemed to like me. She was over here for school and was leaving in about a month. We talked A LOT but since I was not dating a lot I was not picking up on her cues…. We had one conversation before we left and she later told me she was trying to seduce me and thought I turned her down. I later recalled her being a little angry but paid no attention… But being turned down by me just made her want me even more….
Once she got back to Norway, we talked and things escalated…. She told me she only had sex with her first boyfriend and that she would only sleep with someone if they were going out or really close. Well we got pretty close over the following months… Started with light flirting but then she was sending nudes and I was telling her all the things I would do to her… things I learned from “research” I did during my lonely 20s. Man her body was perfect. Great big B/ or C breasts with perfect dark nipples.. Nice little ass and just an overall great body…
Then she tells me…. She’s coming back to America… I am salivating. I haven’t gotten laid or even kissed a girl in 8 years! And this girl, who is a fucking goddess and super cool is coming to America spend 2 weeks with me!!!!!! HOLY SHIT!! Its happening!!
I tell her when I first see her, we are not talking … we are going straight to her Airbnb and fucking… she sends back blushing emoji…..
Her plane lands… She arrives in a cold American city in the winter… precovid…
She tells me to come down… The level of anxiety I am feeling is … kinda great.. I feel alive.. I feel like the wait was worth it…
I drive down, park outside and give her a whatsapp ding… 2 minutes goes by and NOTHING! …
3 minutes…
4 minutes…
5 min…. She answers! Bad wifi! Shes coming down! I get out of my car, and rush up the the door….
She answers… Shes wearing a sweater and tight fitting sweats/pajamas…
With out saying a word , she leans in and starts kissing me like it will save her life… I kiss back… I dont know what to do really , my heart is racing… OMG! She pulls back and grabs my collar and leads me up in the 4th floor, of an old city townhouse…. we closes the door to her room and we start making out …
I feel her nice little booty and she places my hand on her breasts… I then lift off her sweater and shes topless and my fucking God are they perfect breats… ahhhhh…I start sucking on them while she undos my pants and a minute later shes giving me a slow blow job… Not for long…
I then grab her and we just get naked really fast and I throw her down on the bed… I start eating her our and she starts panting and says “im ready…. im ready…” and , lemme tell you and fucking hard I was … It hurt… But I was also nervous… I was almost scared, not to sounds like a pussy but I wasnt sure what to do next….
I climbed on top over and we had missionary for a few minutes, then doggystyle… and then she let me come on her tits… I wish the sex was better but I was terrible and did not last long. But the feeling of having sex was the best feeling of my life… the first time I entered her was the best medicine a man could wish for..!
I am doing well now. I take my medicine and work out and I live a pretty normal life…I wish mental health care was better and people treated you better. I could have saved my 20’s with better treatment….with that being said, having sex with Rebecca the first time was worth every single shit day of my 20’s!!!!!!!!
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/levc9k/mits_over_the_long_wait_is_over_mf