This was about 10 years ago and my then bf and I were students in our early 20s living together in a studio apartment. He’s tall, lean, latino, with brown skin and black hair. I’m short, white, very pale, blond, about 135, with perky tits. We had a decent if very vanilla sex life. I was not very happy in our relationship at that time, I felt like we weren’t spending enough time together, like he was ignoring me, and that’s where this story comes in.
We had a table in the corner of the room where we would sit at our computers, me on one side of the table and him on the next side over. Well one day we’re sitting there both working and I happen to get up from the table and I noticed he abruptly shut the window he had open, I didn’t see what it was but he had a sort of startled, guilty look. So when I came to sit down again I kept an eye on him. After a bit I noticed he had his hand under the table, and his arm was moving just a little. He had his hand in his pants and was sneakily jerking off right there next to me. A wave of shock and arousal hit me. I was sitting there wishing he’d finish whatever he was doing so we could hang out, maybe even fuck, and he’s jerking off! I didn’t say anything, just pretended I hadn’t seen and went out for a bit to sort out my thoughts.
Over the next few weeks I caught him several times more. We’d be sitting at the table and he’d have his hand in his pants, and after a bit he’d get up and go into the bathroom, no doubt to finish jerking off. He was pretty subtle about it, but I still can’t believe he thought he could get away with doing that like 2 feet away from me. A couple of times I caught a glimpse of the porn he was watching, a girl with a huge white ass and pigtails, a pole dancer, etc. I never said anything. I was so humiliated that he would rather watch porn than spend time with me when I was right there, he was always too busy for me. But I was also turned on knowing he was hard right next to me, stroking himself to other girls, the shame I felt made it hotter.
One day we were sitting in this like common room that we shared with the one other apartment on our floor (it was a house converted into apartments so the setup was weird), we had our laptops and we were sitting at a table there having lunch I think. We were just like talking and hanging out and things started to heat up, we started making out and I ended up on my knees in front of him taking his hard cock out of his pants. He was sitting at the table and I was under the table so that if our neighbor walked into the room he wouldn’t see me (probably he would’ve, I don’t know what we were thinking lol), on my knees with my bf’s cock in my mouth. It was hot being on my knees under the table like that, sucking him off. And then I heard his laptop open. I heard his mouse click. A shock of humiliation and anger rushed through me as I realized he was secretly watching porn while I sucked his dick under the table. My cunt was soaked and slippery. Part of me wanted to keep going, keep sucking his dick and let him cum down my throat while he thought about someone else, imagined it was her lips around his cock instead of mine, ignored me except as a warm mouth to cum in. But instead I jumped up and got a look at his screen before he could close it and of course it was porn and he couldn’t pretend he hadn’t been doing it, he looked so guilty too, and I basically just glared at him and left, and later we had a fight about it.
I’ve touched myself to that memory so many times, thinking about sucking his cock under the table while he watched bj porn. The hard floor under my knees, the table awkwardly right above my head, and my face in his crotch, his dick sticking up through his unzipped pants. I bet it was so hot for him, watching porn while I sucked him off under the table. I bet he got off on sneakily watching porn and jerking off next to me, got off on getting away with it, thinking I didn’t know.
(Looking back I would’ve handled the whole situation so much differently but I was young and inexperienced at relationships. Years later he admitted to having had a porn addiction)
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/j5yn7d/fm_my_bf_secretly_gets_off_to_porn_while_im_right
You still with him? How did he cure his addiction ?