I, 18 [F]. kissed one of my closest friend, 18 [F], and I don’t regret it. Part 2 Update

Hey all, I thought I’d give you all an update on the whole friend situation. This happened last weekend, but it’s been fresh in my mind for a while.
My friend and I made plans to hang out again at her house, and I wanted to get drunk so I’d have an excuse to kiss her again, and she seemed to have the same idea. We were both pretty tipsy by the end of the night, and then she told me she had smth to show me in her room upstairs. She started to undress, but started teasing me and said I couldn’t peek. At this point, I was ridiculously turned on, I absolutely could not keep my hands to myself. When I uncovered my eyes, she was wearing the most sexiest lingerie I’ve ever seen, or maybe it was the sexiest because it was on her. She asked me shyly if I liked it, and I did not hesitate, I just immediately jumped up and kissed her, hard. The next few seconds were just a flurry of her hands ripping off my clothes, and my hands being shoved under her lingerie. I was completely naked, and on top of her, so I let my tits swing and hit her face. I reached down and I was absolutely shocked to see a puddle pooling around her vagina. Not wanting any to go to waste and without thinking, I immediately just started eating her out, and it was the best goddamn head I ever gave to anyone ever. I just know it was. I ate her pussy how I wanted mine to be eaten, fingered her until she was screaming my name. She started to push me away as she started to orgasm, but I didn’t let her and kept sucking her cute little clit until it became swollen. My face was absolutely drenched and dripping with pussy juice, and she told me after she never knew she could even squirt. We experimented a little more, came and squirted a couple more times together, then cuddled for the night.
She was already gone in the morning to run errands, so I got picked up again by my boyfriend and went home. I didn’t tell him what happened, but I got a text from my friend later in the evening which made it all pointless anyway. She said she wanted to thank me for last night and while it opened her up to her own sexuality, she didn’t want to continue it any further because she actually wanted to pursue someone else. She said she knew I would understand because I was a great friend, but I didn’t know how to tell her it actually shattered me inside.
I still haven’t replied to her, I’m so heartbroken and unsure about everything now in my life. The only thing I know for sure is that I don’t want to be with my boyfriend anymore. The only problem is I moved hours away to live with him, and he’s currently paying for all our rent and bills, but I guess I finally have an excuse to leave him and apply for my first job. Wish me luck.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/j47uu9/i_18_f_kissed_one_of_my_closest_friend_18_f_and_i