Rape Kink Origin: Losing my virginity at 18, to my supervisor [m27]

I was ecstatic to get my first part-time job at 18, even though it was at a slimy fast food restaurant. The thought of finally being able to afford my own phone, makeup, clothes, etc. motivated me to work as much as my tight school schedule allowed me to.
My manager positioned me to be the cashier, so the front face of the restaurant was a cute, young, preppy, teenaged girl who was always excited to serve hungry customers & potentially get a tip.

He [M27] was my supervisor, who trained me from the first day. He showed me around the restaurant, taught me how to punch in orders, and on slow days he would show me around the kitchen too.
It started with him offering to drive me home after work, and I’d let him. Sometimes we would just sit & talk in the parking lot. Over time he began to take me home the long route, and sometimes rested his hand on my thigh. During our shifts together, he’d text me about how good my ass looked in the uniform. One day, we were getting issued a new & improved design of our uniform, and he gave me a new set that was a size too small. It was gave me an obvious camel toe, wedgie, and the buttons on my top showed chest a bit. It was embarrassing, but this encouraged him to start groping me at work. He’d walk up behind me to help me at the cash, while grabbing my ass & rubbing my pussy between my thighs. I was too shy to say anything, so I let it happen. The sexting and groping at work became a regular occurrence, but I thought that the attention was nice so I never stopped it.

It was a cold winter night, he was the closing supervisor and asked me to wait around so he could drive me home. I did. He let me come into the officer as he did paper work, and that was my mistake. He locked the door on us, and demanded I get on my knees. If I didn’t, he would fire me. Being only 18 and not wanting to get fired, I did as he said. He unzipped his pants and pulled his big brown cock out of his pants.
At the point in my life, I had only ever kissed a boy so I was terrified.
He grabbed my hair, and shoved his cock to my lips and demanded I put my mouth on it. It was salty and gross… but with the help of his hand guiding my head, I started to suck on his cock.
Eventually he stopped, and stood me up. He pulled me out of the office and into the walk in fridge. He made me strip to be fully nude and groped my bare ass & tits. I felt scared and embarrassed. My nipples hurt from how cold it was. He pushed me down and continued to fuck my throat. I remember how scared I was, cold, but turned on, and my jaw and throat feeling sore. I was fully exposed to my supervisor who had the power to fire me. The throat fucking went on for what felt like an eternity.
He pushed me down onto my back, and layed ontop of me. Without hesitation, he pushed his cock into my virgin pussy. I yelped in pain & cried for him to stop. He covered my mouth, and thrusted into my young, tight, formerly a virgin, fertile cunt. For some reason, my body eventually relaxed and liked what he was doing to me. A grown man had me pinned down on the dirty floor of a walk in fridge, and stole my virginity. He eventually came into my pussy, and finished. He told me to get dressed, and we drove to a 24hr drugstore to get a Plan B pill. He watched me swallow it, and dropped me home.

I let him use my body like a fleshlight until I finally quit after 6 months of working there. He’s never contacted me since our last time.

I’m 22 now, and it seems that I can only cum when men use my body like a fleshlight.

Source: reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/hok327/rape_kink_origin_losing_my_virginity_at_18_to_my